by Carl Pickhardt
A paradox of stay-at-home motherhood is that while you're busy practically every minute of the day -- caring for kids, entertaining kids, picking up after kids -- the day can drag, leaving you feeling lonely, isolated, angry and depressed.
BUT! These moments of quiet tranquility could end at any given moment, so I'm going to savor them. I'm going to use nap time for what I believe God intended nap time to be. ME TIME. I need my quiet time - my time to sit back, relax and do something for myself.
An inquisitive little 4-year-old stopped me after my Mommy and Me class at the YMCA today and asked me this. I had to laugh as she cocked her head to one side, furrowed her tiny little brow, scrunched her eyes together, and asked me the question with all the seriousness in the world
She's got a huge grin plastered on that sweet little face of hers. That horrendous smell couldn't possibly have come from her. I'm noticing that her little, tiny legs are moving very fast, sliding around rather easily, when normally, she meets some resistance. Hmmm, what ever could that be about?
I've got a great support network of other moms online, and one day I told them that I was really irritable and stupid little things were really pissing me off. I told them that I'd cry really easily over stuff that never would have bothered me before. Postpartum depression was brought up. I shrugged it off and said - nope, not me, not depressed.
When we're in an emotional state, we can't communicate or problem solve constructively. Our feelings hijack us, blocking our capacity to focus. We need to find ways to reduce the anger and begin to communicate again.