I am a new memeber to this site and the ability to blog has got he hooked. I feel like I finally talk about what I feel and what I am going through and maybe someone will TRULY understand. I am 29 years old ane my husband and I have been trying for 5yrs now to get pregnant. I have had several pregnancy scares and I have come to the point where I am afraid to take pregnacy tests because of the the disappointment and frustration of negative results. I got pregnant 8 yrs ago and I had a miscarriage and I have yet to concieve again. We want a baby really bad and I think we have come to the point where we it is time to think about adoption. Call me crazy but I have not had a cycle for 2 months nows and just last week i experienced what has been described as possible implantation bleeding, however when I took the test about 3 weeks ago it was negative. I have a renewed hope when I was spotting last week but now I am afraid to take a test because I like hanging on to the hope that I am possibly pregnant. Each negative test, and trust me there has been plenty, feels like a someone has stolen my joy and each month that I experience a cycle feels like a miscarriage all over again. I know I need to take another test but I am afraid to take the test!
I knew the minute I read the title of your blog how you were feeling. I tried for 8 yrs to have a baby and felt the EXACT same way about taking tests. If you don't take the test you get to hopoe that much longer that maybe you are pregnant. Once you take the test and its negative you have to deal with the disaapointment. I use to drive my best friend crazy! I went through 8 IUI's, 3 failed IVF's and years of infertilty drugs. 17 months ago I finally had a baby girl....I know you are probably sick of hearing about other peoples success stories after struggling with infertility b/c until you have your own success story its hard to hear about others happy endings. However, I feel the need to share how I finally got my happy ending. After years of medical treatments I went to see an acupuncturist and believe it or not I got pregnant...I was very skeptical and really only did it to prove it wouldnt work and so that I could tell myself I tried EVERYTHING. But to my surprise it worked. You might want to look into it....you have nothing to lose. Best of luck and yes there are people out there who know EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE FEELING! YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
Submitted by CrysRee31 on Fri, 06/03/2011 - 07:54.
I totally understand how you are feeling! I have a 7 1/2 year old daughter from a previous relationship, my husband and I have been trying for nearly a year now (I'm 31) with no success. Every month it's like my heart gets ripped out of my chest when my cycle starts again, it's getting hard to keep hoping.
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I knew the minute I read the title of your blog how you were feeling. I tried for 8 yrs to have a baby and felt the EXACT same way about taking tests. If you don't take the test you get to hopoe that much longer that maybe you are pregnant. Once you take the test and its negative you have to deal with the disaapointment. I use to drive my best friend crazy! I went through 8 IUI's, 3 failed IVF's and years of infertilty drugs. 17 months ago I finally had a baby girl....I know you are probably sick of hearing about other peoples success stories after struggling with infertility b/c until you have your own success story its hard to hear about others happy endings. However, I feel the need to share how I finally got my happy ending. After years of medical treatments I went to see an acupuncturist and believe it or not I got pregnant...I was very skeptical and really only did it to prove it wouldnt work and so that I could tell myself I tried EVERYTHING. But to my surprise it worked. You might want to look into it....you have nothing to lose. Best of luck and yes there are people out there who know EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE FEELING! YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
I totally understand how you are feeling! I have a 7 1/2 year old daughter from a previous relationship, my husband and I have been trying for nearly a year now (I'm 31) with no success. Every month it's like my heart gets ripped out of my chest when my cycle starts again, it's getting hard to keep hoping.