I have to be honest it’s hard trying to keep positive. I catch myself saying to my husband Mark “when we have kids” or “I hope our children…” and then it hits me that we may not have kids. I cry to Mark and he always tells me that everything will be ok; things will work out for us. I believe him and I love him for his support but there is always that not so positive side that says what if it’s not? What if what is wrong with me prevents me from ever carrying a child.
I just want to apologize for not writing for a few weeks but I felt it wasn’t the right time. I didn’t realize that the holidays would be so hard and I needed some healing.
Confidence shattering is an understatement. Pain, raw emotion, the reality that I may not be able to carry a child, longing to be a mother, this is what I felt plus much more that I can’t even describe.
I was so confident walking into my appointment for my ultrasound results that I didn’t even prepare myself for bad news. I have had so many, what could go wrong? Researching every possibility has been a way for me to prepare for the worst. I didn’t prepare for today, like I said, I was confident.
The journey continues…
Walking into a hospital or doctor’s office has never been pleasant for me. I have never been one who is excited to see my doctor. Not that anything has ever been wrong up until now it’s just I feel that I am conditioned to hate the doctor, dentist, emergency room, etc. Today I felt different. I knew I wasn’t going to get my answers today but it was the first step to motherhood.
This year has been tough on my husband and I. We have lost two pregnancies. The first loss was at 5 weeks 6 days and the second loss was at 7 weeks 2 days. We have been planning to have kids for quite a few years now. We both waited for the right time, the right jobs, medical, marriage, etc. It was the perfect plan to build a family… or so we thought.
My First Pregnancy
If you are an expectant parent, remember that it is not necessary to spend obscene amounts of money on furnishing your nursery. You can find many items that you will need to furnish your nursery from cribs, to sheets at department stores for a fraction of the price, without sacrificing quality. Family and friends also serve as a great resource for gently used items.
Even though time with your kids is important, it is also important to make time for yourself. Spending time on your own doing the things that you enjoy allows you to maintain your own sense of individuality.
I just wanted to post a quick note to say that my husband and I have been trying for our second child for two years and it has FINALLY happened. We are so very excited and look forward to being far enough along that we can safely tell our daughter that she gets to be a big sister, something she has been asking to be for a very long time. I've signed up on this website just because I like to see all the news clips and forums of other moms. I find it to be good information and fun reading.
Having a baby makes you realise just how much you should have appreciated sleep before! That’s why it’s so important to ensure that you get the best sleeps before your baby makes an appearance. If you are currently tossing and turning and just can’t seem to get a good night’s sleep your nightwear may be to blame. By investing in some good quality maternity nightwear you can be sure you are comfortable when going to bed at night and more likely to feel refreshed upon waking.
Ok so I have just found out that I am pregnant...yeah!! and woah at the same time. I have 2 kids already 7yrs and 4yrs and it's great. I have been wanting another one for a while but finances and things kept me from making that kind of decision....but now I'm at the point where my husband has a new job and my job is going well so...we were less careful than usual.....and here I am. I am excited because I love the idea that we will have another little person in our lives but on the other hand I'm nervous.