Am I?

According to calculators on several different websites, I should be almost six weeks pregnant. . .

My husband and I weren't trying to concieve but we weren't being extremely cautious either. He wanted to just let things unfold on their own. I don't like not having a plan of action. We've been married two years, together a total of eight years. I'm surprised that it's not happened yet. So, in a way, I think that he's got into his head that we can't get pregnant. We've never seen a doctor to confirm or deny that. So, as far as I'm concerned, it's a possibility. I told him that I was late. He said that I would probably start in a couple days, to not worry.

So, I have been waiting. As I wait, I start wanting specific foods. My headaces are more intense and I feel nauseated alot of the time. I'm easily angered or saddened by small things that I usually don't even give a second though to. I am aware that these are symptoms of things other than pregnancy, but it just seems fitting at the moment.

I want to take a test and get it over with. I want to know if I am pregnant or not. If not, then what's wrong with me?

Then, there is a small part of me that's scared to take it. The longer I wait, the more I like the idea of having a baby. Even if it is unplanned. So, I'm trying to prepare myself for whatever result I get.

I just needed a place to get out my thoughts. I don't want to worry anyone else or get anyone's hopes up.