Amanda's Journey -- Week 15

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Entry 16

CD 22 CY 4 (post m/c)

As I sit here preparing to write about my week it's snowing outside. We are preparing for a really bad storm. We have gone from total estimates of 6 inches up to 20-25 inches now! Seeing Emilee's excitement watching it fall makes me happy and sad -- happy that we are lucky enough to even have a child and sad that we haven't been able to have another.

By now, we were hoping to be pregnant or already have another child. Hopefully this time next year we will. I feel like time is slipping away. Each day widens the gap between Emilee and her future brother or sister. Growing up was hard having sisters 6 and 8 years older. I was the third wheel for them. I want more than that for my children.

On the TTC front I had an interesting development. On CD 17 I Ovulated. Boy did I ever ovulate. Those pains I have talked about before, that I get with ovulation, well, they went a few steps further then normal. Jim and I went to put Emilee to bed and I fell to the floor in pain. Pitocin induced labor had nothing on this pain I felt. It felt like someone was taking a knife and stabbing me so deep. It subsided for a bit and Jim went to work. I got a few more like that and even was about to call Jim home from work. I tried to keep calm and they eventually went away by morning. You better believe that there was an immediate call into my OB that morning.

Well, turns out I am of 20% of all women that experience "mittelschmertz," aka ovulation pain. I’m also part of the 5% of those women who experience it to a severe level. Oh happy, happy, joy, joy! Well, at least I know when I am ovulating! We did get some good BD time in there, too. I was dedicated enough to even get some in during those pains!

So here I am, 5 DPO (days past ovulation) and I am not having a good feeling about this month. Since I didn't O until CD 17 I won't test until CD 31. So it is a long wait ahead.