And the bleed goes on...

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Well, as it turns out, I had another miscarriage. I had to wait to write this entry until 2 weeks after the fact because I was so emotional and angry that this happened to me again within the time frame of 3 months. 2 miscarriages in 3 months time. It is extremely heartbreaking, words just can't describe the amount of emotional pain, frustration and anger that goes along with this. I've had several talks with my doc about the why's and he firmly believes that we have just had a bad roll of the dice twice in a row. I would really like to belive that myself but can't help but wonder if there is something wrong with me that is preventing a pregnancy from sticking and going to completion. And then there is the other side of that argument (going along with my docs belief) that it just happens to women, sometimes multiple time in a row, and then you go on to have a successful pregnancy. There would never be an explanation as to why the miscarriages happened. At least I can take comfort in the fact that lots of women have had multiple losses and go on to have mutliple successful pregnancies. I have a few more topics of discussion to bring up with my doc at my post-op recheck next week (clotting issue, hormonal issue) so I'll see what comes of that. I'm not worried about getting pregnant again, we don't have any problem with that. I'm worried about it being successful. I don't know how many more miscarriages I can handle, but I am determined to get to at least 1 successful pregnancy.