Going on from here

Two weeks past the event. I have accepted the reality of the miscarriage but I didn't think I'd still be dealing with the physical aspect of it. How can I go on to the next part of my grief and loss while I'm still suffering the bleeding and other side effects of it all.
Today I went to the gym for the first time in two weeks and I gave myself a good work-over, There was no worry about how hard I pushed those weights because I know my body needs to be pushed now. i need to feel like I can control how much,I can control how long, and I can control when and where. That's basically what I'm feeling now, my body is out of control and I feel completely betrayed by it.
I can't even trust it to do the typical miscarriage, I have endure prolonged bleeding cramping and hormone plunges. The whole feeling that the universe sucking right now is still pretty high on my outlook.
I'm stuck. I'm the record that keeps skipping over the same line, over and over again. What could I possibly learn from this feeling of purgatory?

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I am so sorry for your loss. I have endeavored two and am pregnant again full of fear. Time is the only thing that helps. I am truly sorry.

First off there is nothing that one can learn from such an experience...the only advice I can give is take this as a moment where everything happens for a reason. I have lost 6 pregnancies, and none of them get easier. I am truly sorry for your loss and the fact that you are having to deal with this. Time is the only thing that will eventually heal this wound.