My first appointment since getting the stitch went really fast. The doctor said that stitches looked good and the cervix was firm. I told him how uncomfortable I have been feeling with the stitch after being on my feet for more than 20 minutes.
I want off this roller coaster ride! It seems like my husband and I have been running into more frustration with each other. But at least he has opened up (rather loudly and full of rage) about what has been bothering him lately.
Over the last two days, I have been feeling something odd. I saw my doctor today so I talked to him about this new feeling because it reminds me of the feeling I had when Gabe was delivered.
I have been keeping myself busy and it seems to have kept the emotion at bay. I even managed to hold my new niece for the first time since she was born. She is almost 2 months old now.
I think I have been getting used to the roller coaster ride. But I also feel things settling down on the home front some. My in-laws have been wonderful to help me out and my husband has seemed in a way better mood.
As pathetic as this sounds I do believe that the stool softeners are my new favorite medicine! After being on the pills for a few days, that ache I was feeling has gone away. Hurray! I am so thankful it wasn't anything serious.
January 28, 2002
I have had great motivation to do my exercises. In fact, the abdominal exercises that were irritating my cervix at first have not caused me any more discomfort.
I am sure glad that the exercises didn't cause me to feel so achy last week, although what DID cause me to feel achy was pretty bad. It ended up being a nasty flu bug.
I think it helped me to post some of my concerns on the bulletin boards and hear from other women who have gone through a c-section. While the thought of surgery doesn't necessarily scare me, I do not like surgery nonetheless.