Holy Crap... it worked!

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Hi!! My name is Ashley and I am 25 years old. This is my very first blog EVER so please be kind.

Over the past two years my husband and I have tried to get pregnant. Oh lord did we try!
I became a self proclaimed expert on the subject.... when to have sex, when not to have sex, what position, what to eat, what not to eat, what vitamins to take, what kind of underwear my husband was allowed to wear, etc (you get the picture)

Finally after a year of trying I decided that I needed help and went to my doctor. After tons of blood work she told me that I was not "ovulating correctly" and that I needed to take Clomid. So, I took 3 treatments of Clomid and dear sweet mother of God I can not ever remember a time when I felt worse. The Clomid treatments were 5 days of constant wretching, dizzyness and absolute hell. Im not sure if that is a common side affect of Clomid but it was for me. I couldn't handle it anymore.

So, after talking to my husband, we decided to give up on the Clomid treatments for awhile. "Lets just give it a break for awhile... and if its meant to be, it will happen" is what he said. I knew there were other treatments but I felt so broken. I felt like the one thing I was created for (creating life) was broken and therefore I was not whole. My husband wanted me to take it easy but I couldn't stop thinking about it. I prayed, I begged, I made deals with God everyday to give me a baby. Nothing....

Several months went by and my husband and I decided to plan a trip to Hawaii in September 2010. In the back of my mind I kept thinking that this would defineltey force fate to give me a baby then. Fate tends to throw a wrench in your plans and what perfect way to ruin a planned trip to hawaii then getting pregnant and not being able to go. :-) PERFECT, I thought. So for 2 months we planned an awesome trip to Hawaii.

So... fast foward 2 months and on 1/25/10 I noticed that my period was a few days late and for some reason my breats felt like they had been hit by a truck. I took a home preg test and sure enough that stupid 2nd pink line showed up within 3 minutes. I was shocked!!!! I yelled "HOLY CRAP... IT WORKED!!!". For so many months I had waited for that stupid 2nd line to show up and it never did. I even began to think that these home pregnancy tests didn't work. I started waving my arms up in the air and called my husband at work to tell him. I couldn't belive it.

Yesterday afternoon I took a digital home pregnancy test to make sure my crazy mind hadn't made the entire thing up in my head.... but sure enough that sucker blinked PREGNANT on the screen.

I can't believe that this is finally happening. I hold my stomach and tell it I love you about 10 times a day. I called my doctor and made an appointment for 2/15/10 for my first visit. We will see how everything goes....