Marie Chronicles -- Entry One

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Today is November 15th, and I found out that I am pregnant with my fourth baby. I am not sure how far along I am, or even when I am due. I just know that I have a baby growing inside me and that my HCG levels are 84. The nurse said I am 1 to 2 weeks pregnant...I am assuming she means gestational weeks. It's still such a shock to both Dave and me. I asked him tonight as we put our three boys in bed, if it had hit him yet, and he said "no, not yet." I don't think it has totally hit me either. In fact, it is still a little hard to believe. Just last week I was getting negative home pregnancy tests. I still haven't gotten to actually see a positive one for this pregnancy. I am so tempted to go out and buy one just so I can have one to show off!

Earlier this week, on Monday night, I spotted some bright pinkish red blood and then Tuesday morning, it changed to brown and faded away. I asked the nurse for my primary care physician about this, and she said that it was actually a good sign, and that it was implantation. Her exact words were "the baby was making itself at home in your uterus...its there to stay!"

I've still been having a little bit of mild cramping, but nothing major. I guess being my fourth pregnancy in 4 1/2 years; it's going to be a little hard on me. That's one thing that worries me a little bit. My first two pregnancies were high risk, with lots of pre-term labor, with both of them delivering early. My first went to the NICU for 12 days. My second was fine, with the help of steroids, but was still 5 weeks early, and I was on bedrest for 9 weeks. My third pregnancy had some pre-term labor contractions, but as soon as I hit 35 weeks, they stopped and I developed pre eclampsia and ended up being induced at 38 weeks because of it. So, my three previous pregnancies haven't exactly been a piece of cake, and I was on bedrest with all three. I am a little worried that the same will happen this time around. And I know its going to be so hard with 3 kids ages 4 and under running around. I just keep hoping that this time, things go much smoother.

Despite all my worries and fears, I am very excited and can't wait to meet the newest addition to our family!