The Marie Chronicles -- Entry 14

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Update: Marie had her twins! As we wait for the birth story, here is the happy news! Heather was born at 4:18 p.m., weighing 3 pounds, 12 ounces, and is 16 1/2 inches long, with apgars of 8 and 9. Hannah was born at 4:19 pm, weighing in at 4 pounds even, and is 16 1/4 inches long with apgars of 8 and 9. Both the girls had to be intubated, but they went through the procedure really well and are doing really well with it. They are having to work too hard with just the c-pap. Marie is sore but they are giving her good pain meds. We'll have more updates soon!

This past couple of weeks have really flown by. I can't believe it's already been over 4 weeks since I got put on bedrest. I am doing really well with it, for the most part. I have my down times, where I get really depressed about being lonely, but I seem to do okay most of the time. It seems the worst when Dave is actually home, and wants to leave to go do something. I know that is unfair of me to not want him to go anywhere on his time off. But, I get so lonely during the day, that when he's here, I just want to be with him. He wanted to take the boys to the racetrack the other day and I started crying about it. It wasn't that I didn't want him to go; it was that I wanted to be able to go with him, and I couldn't, I would have sat here alone for yet another day. He was really sweet and ended up not going. But I wish we all could have gone.

The boys being at a sitter, has been bittersweet. Its nice knowing they are being taken care of, and are happily playing and interacting with a few other kids, but at the same time, I hate the quiet in the house. I walk past their room during the day on my way to the bathroom and look in, wishing they were sitting there in their bunk beds watching TV or something. At least it wont be for much longer. My niece gets out of school on the 24th of May, and will be coming down from Ft. Worth on May 25th. Once she gets here, the boys will no longer be going to the sitter. Ashley will be our "nanny" of sorts. I think she will do a really good job. She is 16, very responsible, and loves the boys to death. She is very excited about coming and "taking care of me". *Laughs* She tells me on the phone that she cant wait to get down here and cook me breakfast and be with the boys all day. I think she is going to make a very good mother some day.

I have found things to keep me busy during the day. I've got my computer, of course, and being able to come at chat and post at pregnancy.org helps so much. It keeps me in touch with reality, I guess. I have so many friends on here, and without them, I don't know what I would do. I've also started doing crafty things. I've started crocheting two different Afghans and have finished one cross-stitch birth record, to hang above their crib.

The movement I have been feeling is really awesome. Dave and I love to watch my belly at night, when the girls really get going. We see little ripples across my belly and it looks so neat. They must know I am talking about them, because as soon as I typed that, they started moving around.

Last night I stood in front of my bathroom mirror looking at my belly. I was in awe of it. I just can't believe that I really have two growing babies in there. It amazes me just to think about it! I stood there for probably 20 minutes just staring at my belly. I have a friend who always tells me how beautiful it is, and that makes me feel so good. I sometimes get a little blue at how big I am getting, and hearing her tell me how beautiful my belly is really helps lift my spirits and makes me feel better.

I realized a little while ago, that I've never held two newborns at once. I can't wait to see what it's like having both arms filled with a baby. I am so excited about meeting these little girls. I find myself wondering all the time what they will look like. Will they have dark hair like Justin and Jason did, or will they have blond fuzz like Andy did. I just can't wait to see them for the first time. It's going to be such a wonderful moment.

I've had quite a few OB checkups this month. I've been going every single week all month long, because of the pre-term labor. My doctor checks my cervix each time, and thankfully, it hasn't done anything since that one night, when I was 23 weeks. So, my bedrest is paying off!! It makes me feel good to know that I am now at 27 weeks 2 days, the girls would be considered viable at this point, and we haven't even had to use drugs to stop labor. So, we still have that option open to us, to buy us even more time. I am feeling so good about this. I just know that I am going to make it to 35 weeks or so. I get off bedrest at 34 weeks, but I will probably still take it easy for another week or two, just to keep them in there that much longer and let them develop more. I had another level II sonogram last week. Everything looked perfect. Both girls are almost right on target for their gestational age. They said that being in the 50th percentile is what is considered average, and Hannah is in the 44th percentile, weighing about 2 pounds 1 ounce, and Hannah is in the 40th percentile, weighing about 1 pound 15 ounces. They said to give or take an ounce or so on each, so, they are each about 2 pounds now. That just really amazes me!! They are growing so much!

I had my glucose tolerance test done about a week and a half ago. I failed the one-hour test, and had to go on to do the three-hour testing. Luckily, I passed the three-hour test, so I don't have to monitor my blood sugar or go on a special diet. This is such a relief to me. I just kind of knew that I was going to fail my one-hour testing. I'm not sure how I knew, but I kept telling everyone "I just know I failed it". And sure enough, I did. I was very afraid of failing the three-hour test, so when they called me to tell me that I actually passed it with really good numbers, I was very relieved. Other than that, not much has happened. I have all the normal complaints of pregnancy. Heartburn, backaches, etc -- nothing I can't deal with. As much as I am not enjoying bedrest, I am really trying to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy. When I was looking at my belly last night, I knew that this is the last time I will ever have a baby inside me, and I want to cherish every bit of this. Even if it is a difficult pregnancy, I know I will miss it once its over. But, at least when it is over, I will have two precious daughters to keep me occupied.

EDITOR'S NOTE: Shortly after this entry was written, Marie ended up going to the hospital with contractions. Here is the update until further news: (from Dewey) Her contractions have all but stopped on the mag. She said every now and then she will feel a little tingly pain, but nothing like they were. They did an U/S and both little girls are weighing in and just over 3lbs apiece. Her Dr. has told her that she is definitely in the hospital to stay until the girls are born. Dave (her DH) went out and bought her a laptop so that she doesn't get to lonely. Only thing she is going to put on it though is yahoo messenger. She was in good spirits tonight after we had a good cry together. Even got her to laugh a little. She is still scared and needs lots of reassurance and good thoughts. She is going to receive the second round of steroids tonight and on Friday they are going to discontinue the mag. That's kind of the bad thing about the mag. is that you can't be on it for very long.