My angel baby is going to be a big brother <3

August 17th, 2005 I gave birth to my angel, Landon. He was stillborn at 36 weeks. I miss him each and every single day. I've always said that I didn't want to have another baby. I couldn't handle another loss if something went wrong.

I am currently 14 weeks pregnant with my second baby. I am a high risk pregnancy because of Landon as well as blood clots in my first trimester.

I don't feel that "motherly bond" and I cannot seem to be excited about this pregnancy. I feel like a bad mom, but I'm terrified something will go wrong. I was completely devastated when Landon passed, truly heartbroken. I'm currently in counseling but she thinks I have "anger issues" with my pregnancy. I'm not angry, I'm sad and scared. I've also been diagnosed with depression during this pregnancy.

Any advice from moms who have had a similar experience?