I so feel just like you or have felt like you and been in your shoes. My first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 12 weeks. We then tried for a year and a half almost two years and finally we were pregnant. I worried the first trimester and had a perfect pregnancy, I too felt that no one understood not even my husband.

Long story short I have remarried since then and we got pregnant December of 07 and had a miscarriage at 12 weeks again. So between mourning and trying so desperately to conceive again, we found out we were pregnant over a week ago. So I feel your pain, when I say that I am somewhat of a nervous wreck, I am very in tune with my body, I won't go into details.

However at the same time, just like you said, I realized that this was my journey, I appreciate and love my child in a way that parents who easily conceive children may never understand. The journey I have been on in the last six years have been emotional to say they least but a very deep spiritual journey to say the least. I hope this helps you because you have helped me and good luck, you are in my thoughts and prayers.