Read All of Sandy's Surprise -- A Pregnancy Journal

After our ultrasound yesterday, I walked around the BX (kind of like a Target but it's on the Air Force Base) and looked at baby clothes. They don't have a very big selection for itty bitty babies so I was disappointed that I didn't get to buy anything.

When do fall clothes come out? Hopefully soon! And the thing that I am MOST excited to buy? A snowsuit for our snowbunny! Actually, both Tim and I are excited to buy this -- babies are so adorable in snowsuits and look just like miniature Michelin men!

I am just so ready to have Baby Boy in my arms rather than in my belly. When I watch him on the ultrasound it's like I could just watch him forever. I love seeing every single thing he does, I am literally transfixed by the screen and hate to look away.

So I can just imagine what it's going to be like when he gets here! But with him inside my belly, I just don't get that sense of "closeness." When he kicks it's exciting and cute, but still doesn't make me feel that LOVE like I feel when I see him on the ultrasound machine.

I talked to someone who has a 1-year-old baby boy, and she said it was the same for her when she was pregnant. She said it was probably because we're first-time moms and we really have no clue about how to relate the person inside to a real baby with personality quirks and all those little things that we'll grow to love and know like our own heartbeats.

I think she's right... I've been around babies before, but never my own. So I really don't understand what I'm "in for." I guess the only remedy is giving birth come October!

I went to the pharmacy today to pick up my prescription Zantac (aka lifesaving drug, LOL!). There was an enormous line because the pharmacy was under construction, so I had a lot of time for some people-watching.

There was a young mom there with her two kids. Her baby girl was about 15 months old, and her baby boy was probably 4 months old. I just couldn't keep my eyes off these beautiful children! They were so cute! The little girl was all smiles and would yell/babble at everyone, and the baby boy had the same cheery disposition. He had this *adorable* gummy smile, it almost killed me when he looked at me and flashed those gums at me! He was so sweet!

And I just got this huge ache for my own baby boy. I wanted to hold him so bad! I am just so done with being pregnant, I want October to be here! I am ready for that next step! I know I'll miss certain aspects of being pregnant and my pre-child life, but we are so ready to be parents already.

It's been about 30 months since we started our journey to parenthood, and I hope we remember this feeling of impatience to hold our baby when things get rough with 3 AM feedings or colic!

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