Hi,

My name is Melissa & I am currently pregnant with my first baby! My husband & I are over-joyed with the news. I have pollycystic ovarian syndrome & didn't think I could get pregnant easily, but it took just two months!

I am about 8 weeks along & am having a bad day. Morning sickness kicked in about 2 weeks ago. That has not been fun. Foods I used to love I can't stomach anymore & I never know what Im in the mood for. Nothing tastes the same as it used to. I don't enjoy eating right now.

I am a plus sized woman (around size 18). I am extremely healthy despite my large frame. I have zero weight related problems. People assume that beacuse you are big you must have health problems. That is not the case with me. As a big woman who is now pregnant, I have some fears. Right now I feel fat & unattractive. My acne, which was always bad, is worse now. My hair is so oily it needs to be washed every day instead of every other day, like Ive done the last 5 yrs. My clothes are getting tighter, Im assuming from fluid retention, gas & bloating. I worry that because Im big, I won't show till the end & I will just look like Im getting fatter & fatter.

I am going to be the maid of honor at my best friends wedding at the end of August when I will be around 15 weeks pregnant. The bride & other bridesmaid are also plus sized, but the bride is steadily losing weight on Jenny Craig & the bridesmaid just had gastric bypass surgery & has lost 12lbs in two weeks. They both will be thinner for the wedding while I will end up the orca whale walking down the isle. I am SO happy for my best friend but Im honestly sad about my appearence by the time of the wedding.

I keep hearing mixed facts oh weather or not a plus-sized woman should, or shouldnt gain weight durring pregnancy. Some people say you don't need to gain and & can safely lose weight if you're bigger. Some say even though your big you should still gain weight, just less than an average sized woman.

I cry for no reason. Im still exhausted. I worry about my baby. I worry about my appearence. I just hope that all this unpleasantness get better after my first trimester. I hope Im not alone in feeling this way.

Thank you for listening
M :)