Terrified

I found out yesterday that I was pregnant after going to the doctor's office for just a normal visit. I was completely surprised. I am on birth control... but it failed. I am only 19, working full time, and going to college full time. I am terrified to say the least. Luckily, I am in a great and strong relationship with a wonderful guy that is 24 years old. I know he will be there for me every step of the way... I just don't know where to begin. First of all, my parents live in a different country and I feel like I can't tell them because they would be disappointed in me and be very very upset. Secondly, I have no idea how in the world I am going to have the money to raise this child. These past two days have been miserable and I have been an emotional wreck. I just feel like I don't know what to do and how to do it and how in the world am I going to raise a child when I am just a child myself??? What am I going to do about school and the wonderful internship that I have been blessed with? I have never wanted to have a child out of wedlock and that is another one of my concerns. Even though my boyfriend and I are in our second year of our relationship, we haven't really talked about marriage and I just worry that someday there might be a stepdad in the picture. That is the absolute last thing I want. I feel like the inside of me is screaming for help but that as far as I can get. I hide my emotions all day long just to burst into tears the first chance I'm alone. I am scared. I am scared for myself, my boyfriend, but most of all... my baby.