Terrifying Excitement

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I found out I was pregnant 4 days ago. I assume I'm 5 weeks, but I won't see the doctor until next week. I don't know how common it is, but I am absolutely TERRIFIED of having a miscarriage. I work with a girl who's had 3 of them in the last 2 years and it absolutely terrifies me. Every time I go to the bathroom I am gripped with this horrible fear...what if there's blood? What if those 2 beautiful pink lines were just some ungodly joke and the universe is about to point at me and laugh...haha - just kidding!

It's such a horrible feeling. And I just can't shake it.

Only 5 weeks. I still have 7 more weeks of this terror! Ugh. And THEN I get to worry about other complications and birthing and complications during that...and then of course, the stress of actually raising my baby.

Maybe this was a bad idea? Who in their right mind wants to go through this!!! Boo. Bad choice.

No...it was a good choice. I'm excited and happy and I can't wait to have a pregnant belly and tell everyone my good news! The crazy mood shifts are really getting to me. One minute I'm ecstatic, and the next I'm having a nervous breakdown about it...

Ugh. Help?