Tristine's Triumph -- Entry 21

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December 21

I want off this roller coaster ride! It seems like my husband and I have been running into more frustration with each other. But at least he has opened up (rather loudly and full of rage) about what has been bothering him lately.

I wish he wouldn't be so angry about life. He has been feeling lots of pressure lately from work and at home to work miracles. And with the added pressure of the holidays, I can see where we both have been stressed out and using each other as our outlets for our frustrations.

I have been doing my best to just not talk to him. When he gets home, I fix him dinner and leave him alone. I don't talk to him much anymore.

In the morning, I make him coffee and do my best to stay out of his way. If he can just get out the door in the morning in a decent mood, I will consider myself lucky.

I have tried to back off with my expectations with him. I have been very careful of crying around him, too. The hormones are really raging and I get teary so easily. I know I can be a big girl and forgive his outbursts, but it still hurts to have to hear his frustration lashing out at me. I know there isn't anything I can do to help him with his frustration except to be his outlet. I just wish he would realize that it hurts me when he behaves this way.

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