Tristine's Triumph -- Entry 16

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November 20

I have been so tired as of late but that is a wonderful thing. I remember feeling this tired when I was pregnant with our little Gabriel. I just want to sleep all day so I have been doing my best to get to bed early and take it easy.

Having my husband's brother and his family here for this week has been the best distraction for me. Our nieces (ages 4 & 6) have been cautious of my bruised belly and they have been enjoying the upstairs room because it has a secret playroom that is kid size! We are making cookies today and enjoyed s'mores last night! Their mother isn't too upset with all my sugary treats. She says that it is their vacation, they deserve the treats!

I have enjoyed hearing the kids in this house. Even when they were arguing about whom should be Harry Potter; I couldn't help but smile at the thought of hearing a child's voice under our roof. They are so excited about the holiday and getting to spend time with all the family.

It has been hard for me to find things to be thankful for this Thanksgiving. While I have enjoyed the visit from my in-laws, gathering together has been difficult. I hear many conversations about babies and pregnancy and I just try to stay away from those topics. I feel that at times, I cannot be involved in those conversations because all I have experienced was disappointment. While they speak of newborn weights and labor experiences and big belly measurements, I feel so out of place. I do appreciate this pregnancy, although I am still scared to get too attached.

At least this visit will keep me busy for a few more days. I have got plenty of time to be scared afterward.