Unplanned and Unprepared

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Well, according to my LMP (last menstrual period), I am about 8 weeks pregnant! From the title, I'm sure you have already come to the conclusion that this was very much an unplanned pregnancy. After much intense, emotional self-reflection, and a few arguments with my parents, I have come to the conclusion that terminating my pregnancy is not an option. I've always wanted to have children, it's just that now isn't the right time. But, I'm determined to make the best of the situation. Speaking of my situation, I feel I should fill you in on a few facts:

*I am 23 years old, and still in school (pursuing a masters degree)
*I'm employed as a research assistant, but I don't make enough money to really save for anything
*My fiance is, for the most part, unemployed (he does get occasional work through his own business)
*I am currently living by myself in a different state, separated from my fiance, my family, and my friends.

That all being said, the level of support I have gotten has been varied. Understandably, most reactions from family and friends have been rather negative. I know my journey will be hard... but by the same token, I know it will be worth it. I have an immense love for my unborn child. I just have to trust that things will work out- that both me and my fiance will be able to find gainful employment within the next 8 months and that some people will come around and see my child as a blessing, rather than a burden.

But, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't terrified. I don't really know how I'm going to do this. But, people only find out how strong they are when they're pushed against a wall. I just hope that I have the strength to deal with everything. I have 3.5 months here by myself before returning home to be with my family and friends (I am taking a year off from school). Then is when the real challenge will start.