After a year and a half of trying to start my family and losing four children before they were with me even a month I had almost given up hope. I knew that it wouldn't be impossible for my husband and I to have a family, but I was scared of having to go through all the fertility testing and procedures. I have PCOS and was always told that it was the getting pregnant part that was the issue, not staying that way. I've cried more in this year and a half past than any other time in my life. I have felt hopeless, and guilty as if each miscarriage was my fault.