I just got my third period after going off birth control and I'm getting pretty antsy. I really want to have a baby and start a family.
So I wanted this to be the month that I conceived. I wanted it so bad! I ovulated around my birthday (last weekend) and it would have been the perfect birthday present! Too bad I was too tired to have sex. I think my boyfriend is getting frustrated too. I'm working 40 hours a week at my new full time job, plus I'm still working between 3 to 5 shifts a week at my waitressing job. I wish I could give up the server gig, but I need the money, especially if I'm trying to save up some extra cash for when there's a brand new baby around the house.
I've been obsessed with names basically my whole life. I remember reading my mom's baby name book before I went to sleep when I was in elementary school. When I started writing I dove more deeply into the name books to find and create names for characters. The idea that a name can be "right" or "wrong" for a person has always been fascinating to me. You can fit the stereotype of your name or spend your whole life fighting against it.
I've taken the leap and started my full time job. It's making everything more real. I'll be pregnant soon and dealing with a whole new set of challenges on top of learning a new job. It may be a little too much too soon, but I was already on the path to a baby before this job came along. I decided that I didn't want to change my family plan because of a professional opportunity.
My boyfriend and I have decided that we're going to use condoms this month because I start my new job next week and I want to make sure my insurance kicks in before I get pregnant. It's going to be weird because we've never used condoms before. He understands where I'm coming from though, and I think it makes sense. I'm not going to go back on the pill for a month just so I can go back off and have my hormones all out of wack all over again. I hope this works. With my luck I'll get pregnant anyway even if we use a condom just to mess with my time line.
I finally got a call that I've been waiting for! I received and offer for a full time position! This is one of the most exciting things to happen to me in a long time. I'll have a regular schedule, and a regular pay check to count on. No more depending on other people's generosity to pay my bills!! The best thing by far in the benefits package that seems to be a very good one. I will be insured through Blue Cross Blue Shield of Alabama.
I got a full fledged period yesterday. No baby this month. That's ok though since I should be starting a full time job next week and I should make sure my benefits kick in before I'm pregnant. I know a lot of insurance companies consider pregnancy a "pre-existing condition" so I need to make sure I'm covered before I'm actually pregnant.
So, I'm sitting here on what should be the second day of my period with nothing so far. I'm not sure what to think since this is the first month in nearly 7 years that I've been off the pill. I could just be adjusting to having my hormonal freedom back, or I could be pregnant already. I'm not going to get my hopes up one way or another, but I think I'm going to go buy a pregnancy test.
Maybe this is the beginning of the rest of my life at a mother.
So today is day 1 of my quest to become pregnant. I stopped taking my birth control pills after my last period which started exactly 21 days ago. Technically, I could already be pregnant, but I just don't think that it's going to happen so fast. I'll know in a week I suppose, but I'm confident that it's going to take until August or September for it to happen. We'll see, everything will come together when it's supposed to.