Without our faith in God and trusting in his guidance we would have never been able to continue down this path. But despite our losses we look upon each day as a gift from God and we are patiently waiting until He feels the time is right to bless us with a child.
She hesitated numerous times. Finally she said that someone had contacted her in regard to me. She said that this someone was a Pregnancy.org community member. She said that this person was 5 months pregnant and wanted James and I to adopt her baby.
It looks as if I am finally going to be a mommy. We are moving ahead with the adoption. I am absolutely petrified. Talk about a leap of faith, this is it. What if she changes her mind at the last minute? What if we talk on the phone tomorrow and she doesn't like me?
Nadine was so excited for us, it was just precious. I don't think either of us will ever forget that phone call as long as we live. We talked for I guess 2-3 hours. I kept telling Nadine that I would shut up so she could go to bed, but then we would start talking again.
I am having severe swings of emotion. One minute I am overjoyed at the thought of finally getting the opportunity to be a parent. Then the next moment I am terribly saddened that someone is giving up their child so we can have one.
James and I both tend to be pack rats and we have accumulated a lot of "stuff" over the last 20 years. But now with the prospect of filling our home with toys and baby things, all of that "stuff" seems so unimportant.
I had worried in the beginning of this journey that if we ever did adopt a baby I would feel as if I am missing out a lot because I wouldn't be able to carry my baby for 9 months, then give birth. But honestly I don't feel as if I am missing out on anything.
So I guess this is it, let the baby madness begin! LOL James and I may end up living in the storage building out back and just come into the house to visit the baby and all of its "stuff", hehe.
I just wanted to mention that although I know I am not the one who is pregnant, I really think I am having symptoms! I have had the worst heartburn for over a week. I hate heartburn! Maybe if I can have some of the pregnancy symptoms it will give Nadine a break from them.
