I am holding the new foster baby in my arms and I can't imagine what I am going to do if we have to give him back. Life is so unfair sometimes. Women pop out babies all the time, I just want one that is guaranteed to be mine! It is so hard to have faith when things are so up in the air.
If this baby goes back it is going to devistate Isaiah. He took the other baby leaving so hard. I feel bad that it didn't bother me. He never felt like ours. Even though I wanted a girl, I wouldn't change my peanut for anything.