I debated starting another adoption journal up while I'm pregnant, but then I decided I would. Adoption is so close to my heart that I am once again finding myself wrapped up in it. This might sound weird to some of you - I'm pregnant, shouldn't I be only and totally wrapped up in that? Well, you're right, I am wrapped up in my pregnancy. I am thankful for my son everyday, and am so grateful that I got a chance to be pregnant and experience this wonderful gift. However, we were so close to our daughter and so close to the end of our adoption journey that I certainly do feel a loss from that, too. Addie's birthday is in exactly a month from today. She'll be a year old. I can't help but wonder how we'd be celebrating if she were home with us. Putting away all the clothes and toys we had for her was heartbreaking. And that's why I decided - I'm not going to stop planning for my daughter just because my son decided to make an unexpected appearance in our lives! I have a pregnancy journal for him that you can find here.
Baby Boy (no name yet, although I am pushing for Ethan and DH is pushing for Levi!) is due in October, and we want to start the adoption process (well, the paperchase) when he's about 3-4 months old, if all goes well. DH will be switching jobs and we'll be moving, so it'll be an interesting time to say the least. With a new baby, and all those changes, we are expecting a few delays but for the most part I am letting myself get excited. It's important to me to have a daughter because of my own childhood that was fraught with abuse and dysfunctional family members. I never had a good relationship with my mother or my sister, and I so want that closeness with a daughter of my own. We have told a few friends of our plans to adopt again (only because they all assumed we weren't going to anymore) but haven't yet told any family. Well, actually, make that DH's family. I've told my family in India because they are so eager to meet Baby Boy. I had to tell them that we're most likely going to be adopting from India and therefore making a trip there most likely in early 2009.
Since it's so late, I'm going to bed, but I'll be back to talk more about the different programs we're considering! :wavehello: It's exciting to be planning for another adoption again!