I have been reading your journal here...it's captivating! I hope everything goes smooth and reasonably fast for you and your DH.
Don't feel bad about looking flaky!!! You are just trying to find the easiest and fastest road to your baby and you deserve to have that easy road!
Where do you live? Are there any pics of you both? I love the picture of your dog-really cute.
GOOD LUCK to both of you, I hope you keep on journaling.
Sandy ! Best of luck!!!!