Books, Books, Books!!!
I went to Target today to find a gift for a friend, and cleaned out their book aisle! The clearance prices were amazing! There were even Spanish/English books and I bought a lot for her and for me!!! Yay!!! I can't wait to use mine...
I did not understand that I had to make the INS appointment before the homestudy was finished. The social worker kept saying to make it for two days after the homstudy was done. So, I waited until we finished the homestudy and then made the appointment, but the EARLIEST availability they have is Oct 26th!!! That's still 14 days away!
(The social worker said they can somtimes get you in the next day, so that added to my confusion.)
I am SO bummed, because Colombia all but shuts down in Dec/Jan, and now we won't get our dossier submitted in country before the slow down.
So, for you gals following soon... make your INS appts in advance!
Some of our friends just made it to Bogata` today. That's the capital of Colombia, and they will be meeting their 4 kids this week. I am so excited, it's going to be so awesome for them... and someday it will be my turn!
Today in Church they were announcing the baby dedication, and for the first time, I didn't cry. DH and I looked at each other and smiled, I know we were both imagining dedicating our babies/toddlers... it seems like it can happen any day now, although I know it really will be a long time away.
There was a woman in the bathroom talking about adoption to her friend, and I heard her say "well, we don't want to wait years and I couldn't take all that time off from work to travel anyway". I wonder if that means they are considering adoption, but leaning towards domestic... Taking time off from work is difficult for a lot of people, especially since both parents usually have to go. (some countries have an escort service that brings the children to you, but the only ones I know of are Korea and Ethiopia off the top of my head). So that is a concern. DH's job is more flexible and he is already telling them he'll need a month off next year sometime. It will be considered unpaid maternity leave. That is one more thing we have to budget for. Besides the adoption, we'll still have mortgage payments,utilities and need food paid for while DH is not working for a whole month. Sometimes people have stayed for over 5 weeks because of paperwork/court.
We're really looking forward to our time in country though. We want to learn the customs, food, and remember as much as possible for our children. When they are older, they'll want to know about the country they were born in, and it will be nice to have some firsthand experiences.
I started looking for Spanish lullaby CD's on ebay. But I got bored. The only ones I found were English songs (Mary had a little lamb,rock a bye baby) that were sung in Spanish. I guess that's fine, but I was looking for something with a little more culture.
Yesterday I finally downloaded my Spanish tapes onto my mp3 player. They barely fit, I had to delete all my music. Still, it's going to be so convenient! Even when I'm at home, I won't have to stay in the same room to listen to them. I hope it works. I have only listened to the first disc a couple times so far, but it's helping me remember the language.
This tape set is a little easier because the other one makes me think in French, so while it's quality is top, it hasn't done me much good yet. Maybe after I get going I can switch back.
I ramble a lot at 5am.
Speaking of Spanish...
It will be so nice to know the language. Every single day that I venture into public, a stranger asks (in Spanish) if I speak Spanish. I know I have that look. It used to cause problems when I was a Flight Attendant. Spanish speakers would come running up to me in the Airport literally crying and desperate for me to translate their problems so they could have an agent fix it. My whole crew would stop walking (to the next plane) and wait for me, not knowing I was just going to say "no hablo..." :? which was embarrassing to me, and heartbreaking to those who thought I could help them based on my looks. I blame my great-grandpa, of whom it is said, demanded his kids learn English since they were in America... Unfortunately, he passed down his dark looks (hey, I do LOVE the way I look) for at least 4 more generations (yep my nephews are dark too) even though all previous generations married Caucasians.
We really don't know any genealogy details about the Spanish side of our family. My grandpa may or may not have been born in America. My mom definitely was.
However, my German side is a direct line (my maiden name goes back to Germany in the 1560's so far, with arrival in "America" in 1710) I put that in quotes because we were here before becoming a new country.
Yet, all of us look Hispanic. =)
Except for one sister. She was light skinned, light eyes, and reddish hair. Completely biological, but she always felt out of place with us kids. We'd run around in the sun, and she'd be slathered in sunscreen, or have to wear a hat. Little things like that, and people staring at her in the supermarket asking my mom if she was really hers. HOW RUDE!
Poor Shaylin. I think she felt better as she grew older and realized those kind of looks didn't matter, and we were an odd group anyway.
I know Shaylin's feelings will affect how I speak to and teach my children. I believe they will develop similarities to us, but will most likely not look like us. (besides, DH is blond) that doesn't mean they won't act like us or be interested in the same things...
Shaylin would of loved to be around my kids. Maybe she'd have some of her own by now. She loved children so much. The little boys she babysat for cried for months and took down her pictures in their house because it made them too sad to look at, it was as losing a sister to them. She developed such strong attachments to people. I miss her so much. I know she's in Heaven watching over my babies now, but I'll never stop missing her and wondering how all of our lives would be different if she was still here.
I started to post a picture of Shaylin, but it turned into several pictures. I hope it's ok for me to post a large picture here, and maybe I'll take it down sometime, but after writing this post, I had a horrible day. One of those days you have to cry through. I know it's because I thought of my little sister too much. Here are some of the pictures I had scanned already. She died before I got a digital camera, so everything is from film. That's pretty frustrating too. We have to preserve her pictures so carefully.
What a hard day. I am going to take that picture down if I don't hurry up and make it to the 2nd page of posts. It's still so hard to look at. We have framed pictures up around the house, but your eyes skim over them more easily.
My puppy is being very comforting today. Every time I sit, she's on my lap. We bought the puppy last Nov, then found out I was pg again, and lost again. I suppose I would of survived without the puppy, but it probably helped.
Ok, I have to come out of this funk... let's talk about happier things! I sold a few things on Ebay. It turns out to be more hassle than it's worth, (non paying buyer for $40!) but it feels good to clean stuff out. The woman who came to pick up a huge mirror ($10) asked me if I was sure I wanted to sell it. I think she felt bad because it was worth about $100... but I've tried to sell it 3 different ways and at some point, it just has to go! Every dollar counts!
Strangely, I been coming across random money in the house. There was $12 in my jeans pocket, $2 on the floor of the closet, $1 in the dryer... Now that is a mood lifter! Now I'm hoping to start finding bigger bills LOL!!!
What's the best way to sell a truck? My dad really damaged it when he borrowed it a couple of weeks ago. I asked him to buy it from us, but he said he'd rather chip in some money instead of hassling with it. Thanks. That's not stressful at all. Now we're trying to sell a damaged truck to come up with adoption money.
I think the adoption community is pretty sensitive about talking about money, but to be honest, you do have to be able to pay the fees. There are agency fees, country fees, lawyer fees, travel fees, fingerprint fees... along with paperwork costs, time off from work... it adds up. The children are absolutely priceless, but there is a process we have to go through. Now would be a great time to have rich grandparents...
So, I'm back to looking for a job. Hopefully being the holiday season, this should be the perfect time to find something. I would really like to work with photos again, but there aren't many companies like that in this area.
Uh Oh, I have to get up early tomorrow, better go!
Today was just long. I did a market research trial that lasted all day and gave me a headache, but paid well so I guess it's worth it. Now I have cramps too. Didn't my body get the message? I'm paper pregnant! No more AF! If only...
I took a nap and now it's 2am and I'm not sleepy. I'm definitely one of those people who can't nap. What am I going to do when the kids are here and taking their nap? I hope I figure it out. I'm 31, you'd think I'd have learned how to nap by now.
So, My friends are in Colombia and met their 4 children today!!! WOW! It's so amazing! I am super stalking their blog looking for updates, and they already posted pictures! (I love that about them!) I wish I could post one or two pics here for you, but I forgot to ask in advance,... maybe when they come back I'll be able to post one. It's so beautiful the family they make! What a gift of God!
Nine more days until we can do INS. It's taking forever! Maybe we'll be lucky and actually sell the truck. We need so much money so quickly. That would actually be half of our next fee.
I hired a gal to come over and help me paint the trim today. Just a couple of hours at $10 an hour, but it will be really worth it. J needs to work on bigger projects when he is home (fixer-upper house) but trim I can do. The only problem is the floor trim (hence the gal that's coming over) because I cannot bend for long periods of time. (back surgery). One Doctor even told me I would never be able to have kids because of my back injury, but HA! I won't let that stop me! I have a tiny stool to put by the bathtub so I can give the kids baths, and everything else that requires bending will just be really really really worth the pain! I'm not worried about it at all, but still, it will be worth $20 or $30 to have someone else do the floor trim work. Then we can put in carpet and it look like a bedroom!
The social worker said that our room doesn't have to have carpet, so we can wait on that, but If we can swing it, we will. Obviously, we won't do it until after all the adoption fees are paid.
Don't worry, we already put new carpet in the kid's rooms. Theirs were the first projects we finished when moving into this house.
If I have time, I might ask this gal who's coming over to help me paint the kids' dressers. Shhhh.... don't tell DH! He hates painted furniture... but I want cute kid colors. We bought both dressers for a total of $40 at a garage sale. They came with a table and chairs, and a mirror. What a steal! They're full size and very very sturdy, but with watermarks,scratches,dings... so they'll look better painted.
Don't you hate painting things? They're obviously older... maybe 1940's... and I can just hear the antique roadshow people going... "it's a shame it was not kept in original condition..." but not everything is valuable, right?
Hahaha... I'm rambling on when I should be getting my painting supplies ready. Bye!