I worked 14 straight hours today with an hour for a lunch break! I'm exhausted, but think of all the money I made! Thankfully I have the day off at one of my jobs tomorrow, so I'm only working 7 hours. Phew! I think I'll be pulling 14 hour days once a week, and 11 hour days the other 4 days. Not bad, especially because my second job consists mainly of sitting on my butt!
I got some cardstock today for the baby's announcements! I was going to digitally scrapbook an announcement for people who live far away, but it looks too hard and I'm not good enough at all the photo editing software. So I'm just going to send paper announcements to close friends/family and a generic card to everyone else's email. The colors I picked out are pretty (I think, anyway! ). The card itself will be cream, and I have two ribbons I'm going to attach on there - chocolate brown and light pink. I've always liked that color combination!
Well, I'm going to go soak my aching back in the bath now! See ya!
I think I might actually be able to do a digi announcement for the baby! This really sweet girl on the scrapbooking forums posted a tutorial link for me, so I went and looked at that. I'll have to play around a bit with it, but it should be easy!
I have to be at work in 2 hours! DH has the day off today - so not fair!
Aarggh! I am soooo tired! Working two jobs can really take it out of ya! I'm glad it's just a temporary thing.
I made a mock-up of the referral announcements today, and DH really liked them! I thought they came out pretty cute myself. I need to go to the scrapbooking store here in town tomorrow and buy some vellum pages - Wal-Mart didn't have any.
Well, I had a lot to say but my mind is blanking out. I'm going to go get some food. Maybe stuffing my face will make me feel better and wake me up a little bit!
I had a ton of dreams about the baby last night! In one dream, she had some kind of correctable eye problem. In another dream, she was a little porker! And in still another dream, she was about 6 years old and we were in a train, and I was telling her a story about something that happened when we were in the process of adopting her. I like that dream the best, because I really felt this connection with her. We were so close, and knew each other so well, and there was so much love there. I just cannot wait for that kind of relationship with my daughter!
I was making a post on another forum when I had this thought - I truly would not be where I am right now if it hadn't been for this website and the women on it. Every single one of you that has crossed my path has somehow contributed to the patience, commitment, love and endurance that this whole process requires, from when I was TTC to now. I just couldn't have done it without the support system I have on here. DH is great, of course, but sometimes it's nice to just have someone else to talk to. And you all have always been so ready and willing. Thank you so much! I wish there was more I could do other than saying thank you, but I guess that will have to suffice.
Talked to DH's parents tonight. They are sooo excited, it's so cute! We told them that we should have our referral in about a week and a half, and his mom almost passed out, she was so happy. Now that we're off the phone, I realize I have serious new-mommy jitters! I keep imagining myself over there with her and thinking, What if I can't comfort her when she feels bad? What if she doesn't trust me right away? What if... etc. etc. I know I shouldn't do this to myself, but I can't help it!! Please tell me everyone feels this way!!
I looked at my ticker today, and it says 11 days until referral day!! REALLY?? Only 11 days?? For some reason I was thinking more like 15. Gah!! I really hope we get a referral before Thanksgiving. That would be soooo perfect! But of course, any time a referral comes in is a perfect time!
It's weird, but even though we don't have a referral, I feel this attachment and love towards my baby. I was thinking today that if we had stuck with our original plan of adopting domestically, we'd probably already have our baby by now. But instead of making me disappointed, I just thought, "That just feels wrong. THIS is my baby, I was meant to have an Indian daughter first." I really can't imagine being anyone else's mommy, even though I don't know exactly who my daughter is yet. Weird, huh?
It's good to be home!! DH and I both have the day off tomorrow, since we have soooo much stuff to do. We have to go sign the papers for the loan (yay!!), then we have to go get our fingerprints done at the local USCIS office an hour away, and I also need to get my HSG done. I am sooo nervous about that! I know it's going to hurt like a b***h. My doctor gave me 800 mg Motrin and told me to take 3 a half hour prior to the appt. Oh well, at least it'll give us some insight into what's going on. And it's free, so you can't beat that.
I was freaked out for nothing! The HSG turned out to be relatively pain-free. The doctor and nurse were both amazed at how well I handled it. Apparently a lot of women don't handle it very well. It wasn't that bad for me, though, honestly! I wasn't trying to be a hero or anything. And my tubes are open and my uterine cavity is totally normal! Phew! Glad that's out of the way!
And DH and I had quite a scare tonight. We went to the mall after the HSG, and once we got in the car and were driving home, I realized my purse was gone! So we went back to the mall, and it wasn't on the bench where I had left it. DH was sure someone had stolen it, but we went and asked at a couple of stores around where I left it. One lady said someone had turned it in, and so they handed it over to the customer service desk. I was SO RELIEVED! Of course, we ended up having to cancel our cards and everything still, but at least I found the darn thing!! I tell ya, today was a very eventful day.
Since my tubes are open, and DH and I are still TTC (not actively, but we're not preventing either), we talked about the possibility (albeit slim) of me getting pregnant sometime soon. At first I used to be freaked out by the thought of having two so close together, especially since Adriana will only be home next year. But then we got to talking, and I realized it would actually be a blessing. DH has always really, really wanted to have one right after we adopt, and now I am starting to come around too. We can definitely afford it financially, I was just worried about being overwhelmed. But I really think I could handle it, even if I stayed home all day with them. And of course, if we don't get pregnant anytime soon, that'll be fine too. We've decided that we're going to TTC for the next three years, and then we'll start the paperchase for our second little one if nothing has happened by then.