We're back!! DH got his gun, and we went and had a nice dinner at this little Chinese place. It was a fun night overall! We also went and browsed baby things - I just can't wait to buy something!! I had to severely restrain myself tonight! I am so bad. April is just around the corner, 4 more weeks! I can do it!
I also worked some more on another page in the scrapbook. It's coming along really well! The lady from the agency said she already mailed out samples for me to look at. Yay!!
Oh my gosh, it seems like homework never ends!!!! I just want this semester to be over!
I just spoke to DH on the phone and he said he has Sunday, Monday and Tuesday off!!! He has to work Saturday though, but this is so awesome because we thought he wouldn't get any days off at all! So... guess what?? We're going baby shopping on one of his days off!!!! I am so excited!!!! I don't know what we're going to buy, but we're probably going to start out small with clothes and diapers and stuff. I printed out a list of 'essentials' from babycenter.com, and we'll probably go off of that. I am dying to tell people about the adoption, but I know I should wait! We want to wait till we get closer to the homestudy and then we'll have to tell because we'll need references. Plus, we'll also be able to tell his parents then and register! I am very excited about registering!
Okay, so here's what I'm thinking we'll buy:
Hooded Bath Robe
Diapers (1 pack for now)
Shouldn't cost us more than about $50-$60 at most, I'm thinking. We're going to Babies R Us and the Carter Outlet. So excited!!
My boss called me and told me I can start whenever I want. Since DH has Tuesday off, I said I'd start Thursday. So my schedule is going to be Tuesdays from 9AM-4PM and Thursdays from 9AM-3PM. Only 11 hours a week! Yay!
I love pregnancy.org!! The ladies here are so helpful! I got so many wonderful suggestions about what to buy for the baby when we go shopping Monday. I am so thankful! I would feel so lost if I didn't have this community, especially because we're waiting to tell everyone about the adoption - I have no support system IRL right now! :P
I haven't worked on the scrapbook at all today, but I figure that's okay. DH is gone, so I probably will get to it sometime tonight. He won't be home till 8 PM. He's working really hard this week. I feel so bad for him. I wish we could switch off and do his long shifts in halfsies.
I'm nervous... I have to call my boss and negotiate pay in about 10 minutes!! I'm pretty sure it's not going to be a problem, but I hate talking about money. That's definitely not the most important thing to me, but with working only 11 hours, I feel like it would be pointless to go back for what I had worked for before. Besides, when I quit he offered to pay me more than what I'm going to ask for. So I hope it's not a problem! And if it is... well, I think I'll be looking for another job in that case. He says I'm one of the best employees he's ever had, so if he respects me like he says he does, he'll pay me what I'm worth! That's what DH says, so I have to just keep telling myself that! It's just hard, I feel like a dirtbag asking for more. Don't know why. Plus, my old boss is kinda tight with the money. *Sigh* I'll update on how it goes! Edited To Add:
Well, I'm back! And he's cheaper than I had thought! He was going to have me come back at the very base rate - that new employees sign on at before they even have any training! And I worked there for over a year! So I said, no, I'm going to need to go higher. And he seemed very against that. No way am I going back at what he quoted! He has to meet me in the middle, or there is no way. Grr. I am so mad. I HATE cheap people!!
Poor DH!! He worked 17.5 hours yesterday, didn't get home till 12:30 AM, and had to leave at 7:30 AM this morning again for another looooong day. I feel so bad for him! He says, "Don't feel bad for me - I like my job!" But he looks so exhausted. Poor thing. He's so sweet, too, he calls me in the middle of everything to tell me he won't be able to come home for lunch, or that he's looking forward to spending Sunday going shooting together. He's a keeper for sure.
I spoke with him last night about what Scott (my old boss) said about the pay, and he thinks I should just tell him to shove it. He said we really don't need the extra money, we can make it just fine without this job. I know that, but I still feel like I need to contribute something. Even if it's only like $300 a month, that's still $300 a month that's going straight to our savings account that otherwise wouldn't be there, you know? I don't know... DH is right, but I also feel like I need to do everything in my power to make sure I'm contributing financially as well. I guess I'll wait for Monday to make my decision.
Man, the house feels so empty without him! I wish he was here!
I got my scrapbook samples from the lady at the agency last night! I didn't realize this, but we'll need to make 40 copies of the scrapbook!! That's why all the samples I got were softcover, 8"x11" pages! So I guess I'll have to start over and get some 8x11 pages from either WalMart or somewhere else that sells that size. I don't want to do plain white pages, so I'm going to make it as pretty as it can get!
We're going shooting today! I am so nervous, I have never held a gun in my life. DH insists that I need to learn how to use it because it's going to be in the house. I agree with that logic, but I am so afraid! Guns are symbols of violence and death to me. I guess that's because I've never been around them! I'm going to have to be brave and try to do this! DH said I'll want to know how to use it in case someone breaks into our house and wants to take our baby!! When he put it like that, I think yeah, I'll definitely shoot then. But yikes, it still terrifies me.
Well, we went shooting! Or, rather, DH went shooting. I chickened out! He gave me a crash course on gun safety and usage, and then I just couldn't shoot it. In fact, the shots made me jump so bad I had to go sit in the car. I know, I am such a chicken!
Hey ladies! I don't really know what I'm trying to say, I just wanted to 'talk' to someone. Feel free to skip over this post, it's probably just going to be a lot of rambling! Well, April will be one year since DH and I have been having unprotected sex (TMI, sorry), which means that we're officially ready to be seen for 'infertility treatments'. I went to visit my doctor yesterday because I haven't had a period in 2 months (a frequent occurrence for me), and she wants me to go see my OB, who will do an infertility workup on me to see what is wrong. I guess hearing the words "infertility treatments" really made my head spin. I just never thought it would come to that. DH and I know that we want bio children as well as adopted kids, so we've decided that we should go get checked out while it's still free for us (he only has 2 years left in the Air Force), and so we can know for sure what's going on. We both know we don't want to go any further than Clomid (no IUI's or IVF, or surgeries for us), so I'm very nervous. I so want to be able to carry a child! But I know everything works out for the best in the end, so I am trying to stay positive. Anyway, we've decided to give the Clomid a chance and push our homestudy back to July, just so we can know for sure what's going on on the bio children front. I'm nervous and anxious, and no one else I know has had any problems getting pregnant, so I feel like no one really understands what I'm going through. *Sigh* Sorry if I sound whiny, I just had to get this out. Thanks for listening!
So that's what's going on. I don't know if that's what tainted our baby shopping trip yesterday, but I didn't want to buy anything. I was so depressed being around all those pregnant moms! I just wanted to walk out of there. So I went and bought a couple of books instead. That made me feel better. One of them is the Unofficial Guide to Having a Baby, and it has really good info on infertility treatments and everything. And I figure if we can't have bio children, I'll just sell it on ebay or something.