WE GOT OUR HOUSE!!!!!
We went to the realtor today, and she explained what the seller had asked of us, and it turns out the counteroffer didn't have that one stipulation in it that we thought was unreasonable!! I had misunderstood!! I am sooo happy!! We signed all the paperwork, and our realtor told us she's putting a Sale Pending sign on the house and cancelling all the showings! It's ours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We get to go in on Friday for the home inspection, and we expect to close by May 31st at the latest. Woo hoo!!!!!
Oh, and DH and I had a talk and we worked everything out. We're back to being us!!
Forgot to add - I got picked to be one of the cohosts of the TTC 0-12 board!! I am so excited and honored to have this opportunity!
Also, this afternoon we went to see a play, and I felt really nauseous and I had bad cramps in my hips and stomach (just the right side)! I wonder if this could mean something good?
Oh wow, I am sooooo tired today! I slept about 3 hours this afternoon and I am still BEAT. I can't say that I think it's a good sign, though, because DH is the same way. I think I brought home a bug from Preschool.
I passed out yesterday! I'm a fainter to start with, but I think what brought that on is my anemia. It was weird. I remember being in the pantry one second and the next I was laying down looking up at DH. I skipped class tonight too, because I didn't want to pass out in front of all those people and have them think I was a weirdo! So DH and I got jambalaya from Popeye's - yummy!!!!
2 more days till testing, but I am not feeling very hopeful. I had some slight menstrual cramping today, and my boobs have gotten steadily more sore (although not as bad as they usually get), so I am thinking just plain ol' AF is on her way. I am feeling pretty down today, because even though we have a plan and if Clomid doesn't work we're going to adopt, I feel like this has taken soooo long. I so wanted to be a Mommy or at least pregnant by this Mother's Day. I remember last Mother's Day I was depressed because I wasn't pregnant yet (we had been trying for a month!). Little did I know May 2006 would roll around and I still wouldn't be a mother.
Sorry this is so whiny! I just can't shake the blues today.
I tested this morning. BFN. The worst part was seeing DH's disappointed face. He has been so sweet and supportive, waking up with me in the 2ww to see what my temperature is when the thermometer beeps. This morning my temps dropped, but he wanted me to test anyway, so I did. He went to look at the test for me at the 10 minute mark, and it was so sad to see him when he saw the single line.
On the bright side, we were trying to cheer each other up and we came up with this - no matter what, we are going to have a baby by Feb or March 2007 at the latest! We are going to start the adoption process in August, once we are done with the third round of Clomid. I am so excited about that! The end of non-motherhood is in sight!
DH and I talked last night, and we are going to go ahead with the adoption paperwork in June like we had planned! As long as our finances are up to par, that is. (That last part was all DH ) I am trying not to get too excited, but do you know what that means?? If we start in June, we should have our homestudy completely approved by the end of July. Then we go on the wait list.. and the waiting time for a referral is 3-5 months! We could have a baby by Christmas this year!!!! I am sooooo trying not to think about that because I'll become a jibbering wreck if I do. One step at a time! Once we get our homestudy underway then I'll start letting myself get excited. Right now there's just too much that could go wrong!
We are going with the domestic AAI (African American Infant) adoption program through WACAP. I have been in touch with the lady in charge of the program there, and she is just awesome. She really makes you feel like you're the only couple she's working with! She answers emails the same day, even on the weekends! I am really impressed with them. It could save us some money to go through a local agency, but WACAP just seems like the best choice. And I spoke with some people who adopted through them, and they said the same thing, that while they were in the process, she made them feel like they were her top priority and always worked really hard for them. This makes me feel very secure.
I filled out our adoption Home Study application today. A little premature perhaps, since it's not even going to get sent in till the end of May, but it helps me stay focused and optimistic! I also called the agency that's going to do our HS, and they told me a list of things I can get ready before the Homestudy even commences. Here's what I have:
Social security cards
Verification of employment
Physical (but this requires specific forms from the agency, so we won't be able to get this done till later)
The only thing I can foresee taking a while are the fingerprints. Other than that, I think we'll be good to go! I think this will happen quickly for us. Knock on wood!
I just got DH on board to send in our paperwork... THIS WEEK!!!! I never thought he'd agree to move it up so much!!!! We are sending in our homestudy application, then we're going to be sent paperwork that we can complete on our own (like physicals and criminal background checks), and once the bg checks come back, we can start our homestudy!!! I am so excited and nervous!!!!! I never, ever imagined this would be happening so fast, but it feels so right! Aaaah, I'm going to be a mommy, and SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are going to TTC one more round on Clomid, and after that we're going to call it quits. Onward and upward!!
I barely slept last night because I was so excited thinking about our baby, and adoption and all of that! And this morning, I woke up early - definitely a jaw-dropping thing for me! I cannot believe we're actually getting started - the time has finally come to take that first step! I have dreamed of doing this for so long, I have trouble accepting that it's really happening!
I have to drive to a town an hour away today for my therapy appt. I see this awesome therapist and she helps me with my issues with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) from the abuse. I really like going to her now; at first it was a huge ordeal, but it has definitely gotten so much easier with time. She just had a baby boy, and this is her first appt with me back from maternity leave - I can't wait to see pictures!
I sent out our homestudy application as well as our agency application! I am so happy! Now I just have to wait for them to send us the list of documents they need from us, and start working on that. I'm also going to work a little on our birthmother profile. I am nervous about that! But we have pictures picked out and our birthmom letter written, so the hardest part is done. I'm feeling really positive about this!