Hello! I used to post on this site a lot while my husband and I were ttc #2. We went through years of fertility treatments including IVF 3x. Four and a half years ago I was diagnosed with premature ovarian failure. Devastating news! I have since come to terms with the diagnosis and my life as it is, or so I thought. After dealing with out-of-control symptoms I sought the help of a Dr and began hormone replacement therapy. After dealing with spotting issues my Dr changed one of my meds. A few days later I got af, the spotting has stopped, and 28 days later I got af again! And I am pretty certain I ovulated last week (which would make another 28 day cycle). Crazy! Especially considering I shouldn't even be getting af at all on my HRT. I have my follow-up in late October. Now I am very aware that the odds of me actually getting a bfp are very very slim as we also have male factor (which we found out near the end of our ttc journey is caused by a balanced translocation)! It has me thinking though. And I am not sure how I would handle the possibility of having a baby now. My dd is 17, and I am nearing 40. Is this normal?! How does someone who dreamed of having a big family, loves children and babies, suffered YEARS of infertility and heartbreak, how does that same person feel freaked out right now about the very slim possibility!!?? I don't know where else to turn with this. I can't believe I am feeling so torn and with such mixed emotions.