(rant) Am I a horrible person?
I have wanted to have a baby for 5 years. DH was holding back on the topic until recently. We've had a few moments when we thought we were ready in our relationship but something always got in the way... mostly all the problems my undiagnosed bipolar disorder caused as well as coping with his Arnold Chiari condition. I got diagnosed and started taking medication and we finally landed on the same page and were looking at TTCing in March-ish.
But now it looks like DH might have brain surgery this year. I know that health is super-important and DH (potentially) being healthy enough to really participate in our kid's life will be a wonderful thing. And I don't think I will cope being pregnant (or having a little baby) and helping DH recuperate from the surgery.
But there is still a part of me that is very very sad that it won't happen this year now :( Am I a totally utterly horrible person for being upset that this will put TTCing on hold???