Ugh...I've start nesting. I can feel it. I don't want to, but I do.
This weekend I went out and bought a bunch of baby boy clothes from Craigslist. Great deals BTW...$50 for over 100 pieces of clothing, some had blankets, some had shoes, some had hats. So I got two of the $50 for over 100 pieces which range from newborn to 3T! Then I went to another lady's house and got some socks that don't slip off and a few more outfits (some brand new with tags!) a big blanket, and a diaper pad for the diaper bag for $32 (I only got about 10-20 pieces of clothing, but a lot of it was new where as the others were used, which is okay too!)
So I got home that afternoon and began sorting through it because I realized WOW I got a lot of clothes ha ha. I sorted it into a pile I will use for baby and another to resell. I have 3 boxes of clothes to resell (gah!) Anyway, a lot of what I will resell is sports themed (DH and I aren't into sports). There was also a Whinnie the Pooh costume and a Clifford the Big Red dog costume ha ha.
So today I am washing those clothes to put away in a tub and pull out when it's about time for him to be here. And all I can see is how messy the house is. I decorated the house for Christmas and DD2 loved that, but I have like 5 loads of regular laundry (meaning DH and my clothes and one for the kids because I did their load Saturday). UGH!
Now don't get me wrong, I LOVE DH a lot and he is a great husband and helps out...but Sunday he was suppose to do laundry. But he got irritated with me asking him to pull out money (I dunno the PIN to my card and I needed cash to pay the people) and he got irritated that I was already buying clothes, so instead of doing laundry...he played video games most of the day. UUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Plus I need our room cleaned. We have his workout stuff in our room and it's literally almost in the middle of the floor. So I almost always hit it getting out of bed and he has weights in the middle of the floor which I trip on...UGH!
So I want him to clean our room when he gets home from work. He's even wanting to invite people over for a bar b q tomorrow for his bday and our house is a disaster! But he sees it as "Well we're just getting ready for the next one, they'll understand" NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!
I think it finally hit me how little time I have. He found out yesterday he will be in the field from the 9th to the 15th, which means he won't be here (and I will clean more) and then the 17th we're driving to TX for Christmas. We won't be back until about the 31st. Then he has off until like the 2nd or 3rd I think. Which is meant for him to relax if he wants it.
There is also the chance that he may deploy in January for a few months (should get back in March or April) or there's the chance of him deploying in April for 6 months (to a non combat zone again). SOOOO I am getting clothes in advance thinking of not wanting to have to wash all the clothes and buy these clothes if I'm by myself and having to drag all the kids to the store by myself (eventually I have to, but I don't have to right away...okay that's a lie, I'll do it after he is born for pics lol).
So as everything is hitting me I'm freaking out! I need his help but I know if I say anything with my current state of mind I'll yell and cry and that definately won't make him want to help ha ha. Although I did throw a bunch of laundry on our bed for him to fold that he was suppose to fold like 2 weeks ago...UGH seriously I'm stressing out!!!
I have at least one more load of the baby's clothes to throw in the wash, I have the girls' clothes to put away, and then I need to start on DH and my laundry. Boy I hate laundry...lol. Oh and he has to clean the backyard (it's a disgusting disaster because of the dog) and I need to him clean clean the litterbox and not just scoop the litter for me.
As mean as this may sound, it was easier to keep the house real clean when he was deployed. I cleaned to make the time pass by fast and I had a routine for myself so I could look forward to the next day. I've really taken advantage of that since he's been back. But seriously, back then I would do laundry every like 3 days, fold it and put it away. Every night I could scoop the litterbox and clean the backyard and I vacuumed every other day! (sigh) why have I become lazy!
I just feel exhausted all the time. I want to snap my fingers and make my house all pretty again. Then there's the fact that after turning in my application to move into bigger housing the place we're in has yet to approve or deny our application just to get moved to the waiting list after I turned in the application at the end of August!
I have a feeling that when DH gets home tonight I will cry ha ha. Stupid hormones!!!
Sorry for my real long rant, I just needed to get it off my chest.