Hi ladies... I am moving on from the March board. So here is my introduction
My name is Casey i am 21 and DH is Blake and he is also 21. I have 2 boys of my own Sam who is 4 he will be 5 in December and Kayden who just turned 3 last month. I talk about my boys a lot and i tend to offer up advice that i have. This will be our first baby together. We have been together for 2 years. And we also dated in Junior High. AF just showed up today after being 13 days late. So i hope to join you ladies here in April. I want a baby so bad as i feel so empty without my boys (read my story below and you will understand) I know a new baby wont fix that feeling and i dont want it to... I dont act like i dont have kids all ready i always say i have 2 sons when people ask and they will always be a part of me... but i have always wanted a big family and to me a new baby is just like adding to that family.
I am going to tell the story about my boys that way if i say something about it later you ladies dont get confused. I was 16 when i found out i was prego with DS1 I had him 2 months after my 17th birthday. I lost him when he was 6 months old to Child Protective Services. His father tried to murder me and my son and i defended myself and had to call 911 and they called CPS and then they came and took my son even though i defended myself and my son they said there was bodily harm in front of a minor. So i moved out and moved into a house owned by my family and my Case Worker contacted me and said that i should stay with DS father and get married. That it would look better on me in court. Well only being 17 i did everything she asked me to do. So i got married to him. Then we fought to get my DS back from the state for 2.5 years and lost. Well during this time i got prego with DS2 who we did not plan. I had Merina and it failed and i got prego. Well i lost him to CPS when he was 4 months old because they had all ready taken my oldest and because my case wasnt closed they said they had to take DS2 also. Which dosent make seance to me. I then fought for DS2 until he was 2 years old and lost yet again to the state. I have contacted many people about this and there is nothing anyone can do. They targeted me because i was a young mom and would do whatever was asked of me and they knew that they could use that against me because i was trusting. I never thought that some of the things i was being asked to do could make me look bad. I just wanted my children back with me where they belonged and in the long run i screwed myself. But they way i look at it now is at least they are in a safe place and their father knows nothing about them at all, and their Adoptive Parents let me see them a few times a month so that makes it easier to get through life. Their father can know nothing about them because (after i divorced him when i finally saw what the state was trying to do) he tried to kidnap both of my boys from their foster parents because he knew that i would ask for him not to be allowed to see them or be a part of the case any more. Sorry if that is confusing it is hard for me to type all the little details and i get confused trying to type. If you have any questions please PM me and i will explain better.