On a personal note. . . (OT)

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On a personal note. . . (OT)

I know I haven't been posting too much lately, but I have been around. Some of you may have seen me post about my dad on another board here.

On February 9th, my dad was admitted into the hospital with severe abdominal swelling and edema. He spent the next week in the hospital getting plasma and blood to try to get his white blood cell count under control enough to remove his gallbladder. After the surgery, he got worse and then was moved to ICU and then put on a ventilator in critical condition. He's basically been the same since then, but keeps trading off one set of problems for another and the doctors can't figure out where his sepsis is coming from. We spent last week there and nothing ever really changed and we came back Thursday.

Yesterday afternoon they moved my dad to a bigger hospital in a nearby city, since they have more resources. We were all very excited about the move and hopeful it would lead to his recovery. At 9pm last night my youngest brother called me to tell me that the doctors just informed the family that my dad was not expected to survive the night. So far he's hanging in there, but his organs are failing at this point so we don't know how long he has left.

He always told us he'd die young, he's 53. He also us before that he never wanted to be in the hospital and be hooked up to a bunch of tubes and machines being kept alive, which we are doing to him at this point, though my mom did sign a DNR for him. He once told my mom that he knew if he ever went into the hospital he'd never come out alive, so he's always been very resistant to being hospitalized.

I feel nauseous and crampy since talking to my brother last night, a bit dazed and my whole world is spinning. I'm not sure what I should be doing, thinking or feeling at this point. I just know that it kills me to think my kids will never know their grandpa and that my dad may never meet his first grandson. I hope and pray that he still comes through the other end of this, but am trying to prepare myself for any eventuality. If you managed to read all of this, I thank you for your attention. If I'm a bit slow posting around here, you'll know why.

Joined: 02/10/08
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Oh Anna... I've been following your FB updates, but had no idea of the extent of your dad's illness!!

Sending lots of love and hugs as you go through this difficult time....

cuppycake77's picture
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I am so very sorry to read this. I know how hard it is to watch a parent slip away, as I watched my Dad's health decline and lost him a few days after I got engaged in April of 2010. It has been almost 2 years but it is still so tough to think that our LO will not know her Grandpa.

I pray for you and your family and hope that your Dad will make a full recovery.

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Joined: 08/13/11
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I am so sorry this is happening. (big hugs)

There aren't any words that can make you feel better. I'm really hoping for yours and your family's sake that he pulls through this. It must be so hard since you're so close to having your little boy here as well. You and your whole family are in my thoughts and prayers.

(hugs) and remember, we're all here for you too.

Joined: 08/09/11
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I'm so sorry, Anna. I lost my mom to breast cancer right after I found out I was pregnant (almost 7 months ago now) and it's been a roller coaster of emotions, knowing my baby will never know her. Let yourself feel what you feel and know that it'll be a long process of healing. Your life will never be the same, which I'm sure you know -- but it can be OK again. Just take it one day at a time and know that we're all thinking of you.

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Prayers for healing for your Dad and peace for you and your family. :bighug:

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I wish there was something I could say or do that would make you feel at ease. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers and I hope he makes a full recovery.

JBird3010's picture
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It's so hard to watch your parent's or grandparents declining in health. I lost my dad when I was very young, 7 years old, so it's not the same by any means when you're our age and understand everything that is happening. I lost my grandma to a very short battle with leukemia a few years ago, and I felt just like you do. I was very confused as to how to feel, but in the end, I realized that I was just happy that she wasnt hurting anymore. Your dad sounds like my grandpa, doesnt want to be bothered by medicine if it wont help, my granpda is a great man, and I'm sure that your dad is too. I hope that you can find understanding in these unfortunate circumstances and find peace knowing that if your dad does pass, he will be happy and pain free.

I know we dont know each other very well, but I love you and I wish the best for your family.

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Hugs and prayers to your family!!

Its hard to watch a family member let alone your parent(s) health go down hill. Im dealing with my mother and fathers health everyday and each time they call im scared on what going to be said on the other end. Hang in there hun and i pray things turn out for you!!

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I am so sorry to hear about the news of your father. There is nothing that I could say to help you feel better, but I really hope and pray that he does make a recovery. We're all here and thinking of you and your family.

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I'll be keeping your dad (and your whole family) in my thoughts & prayers. I can only imagine the roller coaster of emotions, having everything happen all at once.

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I am so sorry that even with the move things are not looking more promising for the return of his health. I can't even imagine all the emotions you are going through right now. :bigarmhug: Sending you lots of positive thoughts and strength over the coming days.

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Oh I'm so sorry to hear this. I just can't imagine what you must be feeling right now. Thoughts and prayers to your dad and your family.

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I'm so sorry to hear about this. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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I'm so sorry to hear of his decline. I have been stalking you and reading updates. Things were looking positive and this must come as a shock. You and your family are in my thoughts.

My mum passed away when I was 18. My daughter was born on her birthday and it's such a blessing and keeps her memory alive even more so than it did before Gemma was born. We do find the strength.

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I am so sooty to hear about your dad. I hope he pulls through, you, your dad and family are in my prayers.

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oh wow that is young Sad I'm so sorry you and your family are going through this right now.
I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope the drs are wrong and your dad pulls though


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:lurk: :bigarmhug: I'm so sorry!! My prayers are with you and your family.

daria's picture
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Oh Anna, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'll be thinking of you and your whole family. :bigarmhug:

PsycheGal's picture
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Anna I am so sorry you are going through this Sad You and yours are in my thoughts. I hope he pulls through!

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I am sorry to hear about your after. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.