I know I haven't been posting too much lately, but I have been around. Some of you may have seen me post about my dad on another board here.
On February 9th, my dad was admitted into the hospital with severe abdominal swelling and edema. He spent the next week in the hospital getting plasma and blood to try to get his white blood cell count under control enough to remove his gallbladder. After the surgery, he got worse and then was moved to ICU and then put on a ventilator in critical condition. He's basically been the same since then, but keeps trading off one set of problems for another and the doctors can't figure out where his sepsis is coming from. We spent last week there and nothing ever really changed and we came back Thursday.
Yesterday afternoon they moved my dad to a bigger hospital in a nearby city, since they have more resources. We were all very excited about the move and hopeful it would lead to his recovery. At 9pm last night my youngest brother called me to tell me that the doctors just informed the family that my dad was not expected to survive the night. So far he's hanging in there, but his organs are failing at this point so we don't know how long he has left.
He always told us he'd die young, he's 53. He also us before that he never wanted to be in the hospital and be hooked up to a bunch of tubes and machines being kept alive, which we are doing to him at this point, though my mom did sign a DNR for him. He once told my mom that he knew if he ever went into the hospital he'd never come out alive, so he's always been very resistant to being hospitalized.
I feel nauseous and crampy since talking to my brother last night, a bit dazed and my whole world is spinning. I'm not sure what I should be doing, thinking or feeling at this point. I just know that it kills me to think my kids will never know their grandpa and that my dad may never meet his first grandson. I hope and pray that he still comes through the other end of this, but am trying to prepare myself for any eventuality. If you managed to read all of this, I thank you for your attention. If I'm a bit slow posting around here, you'll know why.