Does anyone else get that feeling?
Last night I was lying in bed and began to freak out! DH was asleep (out cold) and I was just starting to picture me having this little one and after he/she is born and them crying and me crying and I was happy but SO scared! Sometimes I sit there and think OMG what did I just get myself in to?!!!
Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy and excited. But sometimes thinking about juggling 3 kids, housework, helping one with school, one will be hopefully getting out of terrible twos, a newborn, the animals, cooking, etc most of the time alone since poor DH gets worked to death then add in schooling, classes, field time, deployments, GAH! My mind explodes!
I'm just nervous and I guess it's finally starting to sink in that OMG I'm pregnant with a 3rd kid and at times I will be alone in doing it!
Too bad I couldn't wake up DH and cry about it (I was seriously close to tears last night) since he had to work through to weekend (stupid military ruins all plans ha ha) and doesn't get another possible day off until Saturday (unless they decided to make them work through the weekend again training foreigners).
Plus I've been real emotional but trying not to cry because whenever I start to tear up DH teases me and he's like "Are you really going to cry?" because he finds some of that stuff funny (unless I snap at him ha ha. Don't worry he comforts me but he still kind of chuckles at it). Too bad men don't go through stuff like this. I bet he wouldn't be laughing then! Ha!
Anyway, I just thought I share that I have begun my freak out stage. Next up will be the "my house is disgusting, I can't bring an infant in here, we have to clean everything and get rid of stuff!!!" phase. I can feel that one just below the surface, esp after vacuuming today and seeing all the stains on the rug. Ha ha. Then of course I'll hit the freak out stage again in 3rd trimester. Okay time to eat now, LO is hungry haha.