Okay well.. let's start with the waiting room:
Random lady as I walk in: Wow! Look at that baby! When are you due?
I sit down. A lady with a HUGE belly comes in.
Random lady: Wow! When are YOU due?
Lady with huge belly: I have 8 more weeks.
Random lady: Holy crap! She (me) is due on Friday!
Everyone in the waiting room looks at me.
Lady with huge belly: You don't even look like you're close to term.
Me: Believe me, I'm due Friday.
Lady with huge belly: You don't have this (points at her belly)
Me: I threw up the entire pregnancy, so I haven't gained any weight.
I got called back at this point, but.. I feel kind of self conscious about my lacking preggo belly. I really think if I was skinny it'd be "bigger" but...since I'm already a big girl, it just kind of got round and hard LOL
Anyway, about the appt: The MW saw me today. She shoved her hand up there and MAN it hurt. The nurse didn't hurt me like that last week. The MW said she knows the head is down, so that's good because the nurse couldn't feel it. She was like..wait... wait....you're *almost* at a... (drum roll please!!) 1!! I was like a ONE? What's ALMOST at a one? Zero! So anyway, she said my cervix is still high up and very firm (and obviously not dilated since I'm *almost* a one.) She took off her gloves and said.. Do you want to talk about a plan B for labor? I said yes, my boss already took me off the schedule and if I can't work and I don't have this baby next week, I'm looking at no paycheck coming in and I can't do that. It was nice she gave me the choice - she didn't force me or anything into getting induced. But I'm all for it. Yes, I understand it might lead to a c-section. I'm fine with that.
SO - Wednesday, April 10th I go in for cervadil at 6pm. I stay the night in labor and delivery. The next morning they start me on pitocin. I've heard crap stories about inducing and both of them, but the MW brought up a good point: She asked me how ready am I? Because labor is going to hurt, period. If I'm ready READY to have the baby out, then I have to get my mind set that pitocin is helping me get there.
I talked to DH who sounded ... I dunno.. bummed? He keeps telling me she might come before then. I KNOW she might come before then, but I was happy just to have a light at the end of the tunnel and he doesn't sound excited at all. I know he probably will be when she gets here. He BETTER be. Plus, he doesn't have a whole lot of vacation and I'm basically forcing him to use atleast two days just with me in the hospital. So.. I dunno, I just wish he sounded a bit more optimistic on the phone.
Talked to my boss, I told him just to add me back into the schedule on Monday. So that'll be my last day. I go back to the doc on Tuesday, I guess just to make sure I still need to be induced? She said something about they don't give Cervadil to everyone - so maybe if my cervix thins out by itself I won't need that. I dunno.
I'm really scared and anxious.
I'm really hoping she does decide to come on her own.. and like I mentioned yesterday.. I hope she comes EXCEPTIONALLY fast! I know this isn't the kind of appointment news you wanted to hear, girl, but like you said - at least you have a light at the end of the tunnel, regardless of all else.
FYI - Induction is ok, mama.. Your MW / nurse is right.. Pitocin is no joke.. so you do have to prepare for all possibilities (natural labor which may be longer than you want it to be) or even a C/S. And no, it won't be fun or comfortable. But women do it every day and come out just fine! I know you can do this.. You're a strong woman! (Just recall some of the conversations we've had and all the "OH HELL NO!"s you've said to me.. Take that strength and get this done - You're no crumbly cookie.
Honestly, I wanted to be induced. I'm really really really tired of being pregnant. I hurt so bad down there. Every time she moves, it's uncomfortable. I don't get any sleep and I'm a complete *****. When I lay in bed - and I have to move, I actually have started to cringe because I know it hurts so bad, just to flip over or whatnot. She would have let me go to 42 weeks, but I needed something to tell my boss...and I wanted to get done.
That said, I just watched a video on Pitocin and Epidurals and giving birth. I'm so screwed!
First off-many hugs to you-keep your chin up, even though I know you feel miserable! You got this!
Secondly, keep telling yourself she very well may come on her own, and if not you have an end date.
Thirdly, coming from a mama who had to be induced with pitocin at 41 weeks...no it's no joke, and yes it's going to hurt...but you CAN and WILL get through it. And in the end, you will have your beautiful baby girl in your arms. Just remember you can request an epidural. I know a lot of people say that getting an epidural can slow things down....my experience it sped me up and very very quickly.
As for your DH, maybe he seems different because now he has a date in his head and see's that this baby is coming and it's soon and it's starting to sink in a little more that his daughter is on her way! I know my DH was like..we no longer have 9 months left, or even 9 weeks left...it's here. And this isn't his first child either and he has those feelings. So maybe your DH is the same way?
I don't think you're screwed. It really depends on your pain tolerance. I was induced with Noah bc of blood pressure issues and he was in distress. I didn't think it was a horrible experience. The horrible part for me was finding out at 7 CMs dilated that I needed to have an emergency c-section AND after I did and yes, I hurt and was sore.. it wasn't bad at all. I think you should prepare for the worst but also hope for the best. You will only hurt for a little bit.. compared to the joy you will have for a life time
I am sure your DH is just bummed about you having to have to do that and her not coming on her own yet. You know how men are.. they have no clue. Keep your chin up girlie!!
BTW.. if you have her April 11th, it'll be a day before DH and I's anniversary
I'm glad you two have both been induced. I mean - not glad that it happened, but glad that you can reassure me that everything will turn out okay. I just talked to my mom as well - she had to be induced with my brother and she said it's painful...and then she said she had a natural childbirth. Ummm..NO thanks. I know we're "made" to have babies, but anything that'll help - I'll take it.
Jill, I think for DH and I, even though we have her room and her clothes and "baby things" it still hasn't set in that we're having a baby. I don't know how anyone can go for nine months in denial that something is growing in there and go through all the motions, but still not think about the end result...but I have. And so has he. So, possibly having the end date has thrown him off his denial game a little bit. Not me boy, I'm still in denial! LOL
Nidia, DH and I's anniversary is May 19th. I've thought about it a lot because Julie will only be a month old and ... it's our first year anniversary and I'd like to do something special with DH, but.. I don't want anyone babysitting her that early either. So, he may just get a card LMAO
I really hope she comes before then for you. But if not, induction isn't the end of the world. I've been induced twice. 39+1 with DS1 and 38+5 with DS3. Both times my water broke and nothing happened. I started at 1cm and 50% with DS1. They began pitocin at 3:30pm and I was ready to push at 10pm. yes, it hurt a lot. I did get an epidural, which worked wonderfully. With DS3 I started at 2cm. The pitocin was started at maybe 8:30pm and I was ready to push just after midnight. Again I got an epidural and again it worked just fine. So, it doesn't have to take forever and it can work out fine.
I'll be stalking and hoping everything goes smoothly and easily (and soon!) for you. Good luck!
(Oh, and i don't think DS1 was "real" to DH until he got to hold him.)
big boy 12.8.07 @ 39+2 7lbs 8oz, 20.5" BFed for 13 months
middle boy 8.12.09 @ 39+4 7lbs 9oz, 21" BFed for 13.5 months
little boy 4.26.11 @ 38+4 6lbs 14oz, 19.5" BFed until 26mo and restarted at 30mo!
baby boy 10.25.13 @ 41+0 8lbs 15oz, 21.5"
8.16.12 & 12.16.12