Okay well.. let's start with the waiting room:
Random lady as I walk in: Wow! Look at that baby! When are you due?
I sit down. A lady with a HUGE belly comes in.
Random lady: Wow! When are YOU due?
Lady with huge belly: I have 8 more weeks.
Random lady: Holy crap! She (me) is due on Friday!
Everyone in the waiting room looks at me.
Lady with huge belly: You don't even look like you're close to term.
Me: Believe me, I'm due Friday.
Lady with huge belly: You don't have this (points at her belly)
Me: I threw up the entire pregnancy, so I haven't gained any weight.
I got called back at this point, but.. I feel kind of self conscious about my lacking preggo belly. I really think if I was skinny it'd be "bigger" but...since I'm already a big girl, it just kind of got round and hard LOL
Anyway, about the appt: The MW saw me today. She shoved her hand up there and MAN it hurt. The nurse didn't hurt me like that last week. The MW said she knows the head is down, so that's good because the nurse couldn't feel it. She was like..wait... wait....you're *almost* at a... (drum roll please!!) 1!! I was like a ONE? What's ALMOST at a one? Zero! So anyway, she said my cervix is still high up and very firm (and obviously not dilated since I'm *almost* a one.) She took off her gloves and said.. Do you want to talk about a plan B for labor? I said yes, my boss already took me off the schedule and if I can't work and I don't have this baby next week, I'm looking at no paycheck coming in and I can't do that. It was nice she gave me the choice - she didn't force me or anything into getting induced. But I'm all for it. Yes, I understand it might lead to a c-section. I'm fine with that.
SO - Wednesday, April 10th I go in for cervadil at 6pm. I stay the night in labor and delivery. The next morning they start me on pitocin. I've heard crap stories about inducing and both of them, but the MW brought up a good point: She asked me how ready am I? Because labor is going to hurt, period. If I'm ready READY to have the baby out, then I have to get my mind set that pitocin is helping me get there.
I talked to DH who sounded ... I dunno.. bummed? He keeps telling me she might come before then. I KNOW she might come before then, but I was happy just to have a light at the end of the tunnel and he doesn't sound excited at all. I know he probably will be when she gets here. He BETTER be. Plus, he doesn't have a whole lot of vacation and I'm basically forcing him to use atleast two days just with me in the hospital. So.. I dunno, I just wish he sounded a bit more optimistic on the phone.
Talked to my boss, I told him just to add me back into the schedule on Monday. So that'll be my last day. I go back to the doc on Tuesday, I guess just to make sure I still need to be induced? She said something about they don't give Cervadil to everyone - so maybe if my cervix thins out by itself I won't need that. I dunno.
I'm really scared and anxious.