So.. I got in touch with a nurse yesterday who told me to come in today. I wasn't really sure how they were going to make me feel better with no ultrasound, but.. I went. I met with the MW (whom I ADORE! She's a complete fit to be a MW, she's sweet and funny and caring and she's awesome) who asked me what was going on. I told her I was having some pain (not really cramping) in my left side and some brown discharge. She looked in there with the speculum thingy and said, "Your cervix is perfect"... which made me giggle. She said there's no discharge up there ...except for the white "pregnancy" discharge which is completely normal. Then she said I was dehydrated and my pee was dark. Which could explain my brown discharge, since it's liquid, not discharge-y, it could be just getting dark from the pee. So I have to drink some huge amount of water. Then she said she'd be right back. I was feeling kind of bummed. I knew the appt wouldn't ease my fear...and she walked back in with an ultrasound machine!!! I told her I loved her and was her friend FOREVER.
She did the ultrasound on top...jabbed the thingy down in my fat..lol. But there was baby. Not moving. She said she saw the heartbeat and kept trying to point it out to me. She moved the wand around and then I could see it too so I was relieved. She said sometimes when you.... and she flipped the wand around and baby came back up and ... I started to cry. Baby was bouncing ALL around in there, kicking and punching and trying to head butt everything...it was so amazing to see that.. I've had an u/s before but the baby was just barely moving around and this time you could see the arms and legs just a goin! I told her thank you SO much for taking the extra time to alleviate my fears. She gave me a hug, told me no problem. What a great...great...great appointment.
ONLY thing is - DH called and I was telling him everything that had happened and... he doesn't sound excited at all. He says he is, but he doesn't sound like it. I know he's worried and I'm worried too...to the point of obsessing, but... I'd really like him to think that maybe this one might work out.
I go back in four weeks for a glucose test and a whole bunch of blood tests...and she said we're going to probably try the doppler then because now it's too early and.. (she didn't say this) I'm too fat..lol. And she put my weight restriction at 25 lbs. I don't think that'll matter much, I've been really careful lately of lifting anything heavy anyway, but it's nice to have it on paper in case the boss says something.