Up until a few days ago, Judah was feeding fine and things seemed to be going well. When DH went back to work on Wednesday I had a good day. I took Judah to the midwife on Thursday and she said that other than some slight jaundice, he looked fine. I was starting to get a bit worried though because I fed him while I was there, weighed him before and after and he had only taken in an ounce. I had fed him before I left home though so that may have been why. Also, he was the same weight he was at the doctor on Monday...
So yesterday night we were at church and he seemed so unsatisfied. I fed him before we left, then I had to feed him about an hour after we'd been there, then he needed to eat a third time later. And we had a rough night overnight as well. DH ended up bringing him out to the living room and sleeping with him on his chest so I could get some much-needed sleep.
Today was more of the same - fed him before church and then during church then a bunch when I got home; he took a really good nap but then in the evening was totally unsatisfied - would wail right after he got off the breast. I tried to feed him for about an hour but I was pretty much losing my mind with him crying and my other kids needing things, having been on the couch all day and not done much of anything, etc. So I ended up giving him 2 oz of formula. And after that he was calm and eventually after some rocking he's finally asleep. So I know that's what he needed; I just don't understand why my body doesn't make enough milk
My milk came in, I was engorged for a couple days and then all of a sudden my breasts were soft and they don't ever feel full; even my let down is going away. I don't think I'll totally dry up; but it's just weird to me that my body just doesn't make enough milk on its own to feed a baby. I do all the right things and three times in a row, this happens.
I was feeling pretty down about it today and really didn't want to do formula but I had no choice. I started taking Fenugreek today so we'll see if that makes a difference (not holding my breath because it didn't work w/ my son).
I weighed him on our digital scale (weighed me, then me with him - I'm 5lbs from prepreg weight, woot!) and he was about 7lbs 2oz - over a pound less than birth, 9 oz less than on Monday. So I'm going to get him weighed at the doctor on Wednesday and probably order some Domperidone from the doc that day, get it compounded and start taking it this week.
I do feel like I gave it a go w/o drugs; I tried encapsulating my placenta which is supposed to work but it didn't seem to make much difference for me. It's just the same thing happening over again, third time around. I think if there are any more babies, I'm just going to go ahead and start taking the drugs when they're born!
Sorry for the novel, just need to get it off my chest. DH has been SO supportive during this time; he doesn't have the answers but just being here for me is so important.