Hey girls. I wanted to give an update and say a formal goodbye to everyone on the board. Things have been incredibly rough the past 2 weeks. I do feel slightly better but I think I'm in a lot of denial still about what happened. I'm even having a hard time looking in the mirror and realizing I do not have my bump anymore. I cry daily but it's gotten better. On Sat. we picked up our little girls remains. She was cremated and we will be putting her with my mom. Hopefully my mom is holding her in her arms for me.
I'm now lactating which makes this situation so much harder. It has calmed a bit but I am still leaking in the mornings. We have decided we will try again which is a big step for me because I didn't want to. It was mostly because of DD. She asked me if she was going to "get another chance to have a baby sister?" That broke my heart and realized that I at least owe it to her. I was told by my OB that I would def. need a cerclage put in at 12 weeks. However, I will be switching OB's because I feel that this should have been monitored earlier due to the preterm birth of my daughter. I will actually get a consultation with a high risk when the time comes to see what they say. I'm no where near ready to do IVF or get pregnant again so I don't know when I will be back on the forums.
SO with that being said, from the bottom of my heart I hope everyone has a great pregnancy and delivers the most beautiful healthy babies ever! Thank you for all the kind words and the beautiful blinkies, which I will be updating soon. You girls are the greatest! Love you lots!!! :bighug: