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I think it's time...

I think it's time that I go ahead and move on over to April. AF hasn't shown her ugly face her but should any day now. This last cycle was a terrible whirlwind that I really hope not to repeat. I had all sorts of weird lines on tests and one that was a false positive on a blue dye...I knew I shouldn't have taken the blue dye. It seems that all of my symptoms were caused by progesterone. I fell asleep driving twice and it was so bad by Saturday that I feel asleep 3 different times on the couch...took 3 different naps even. It was awful. I called the doc today and told them my tests were still negative and asked if I could stop it and they said yes. I guess they really don't want you taking it when the side effects are that bad. I was also pretty depressed on it. But yay! I get to stop it and now I feel ready to go ahead and move on to April. Originally Cheri 22 mentioned April so maybe this next cycle will be hours. I've got meditation cds and while it might sound crazy am going to a spiritual healer to help with all of this so that I can stay calm and balanced and not just go crazy and get so stressed. So far it's helping a lot. So I'm starting off on a positive note and am optimistic that this will be the cycle! Smile

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Well, first, I'm sad that March wasn't your month, but happy that we're kind of moving on together! Despite what you've been through, you seem to be such a positive person, and makes others feel positive as well. It's crazy that progesterone has such a negative effect on you, the falling asleep while driving is especially scary!

I really hope that April 2013 brings good things for you!

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Hi Leah:) Welcome to April. Still hoping for you. April is a wonderful time to have a baby.

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Leah.. ..Keeping my fingures crossed for you...

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Leah sorry you are moving over but hopefully April will be your month. Now you have me scared I'm starting progesterone this cycle. We are on all the same meds expect the Baby Aspirin I don't take that. Sending lots of baby dust your way.

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Thank you ladies! And Jessica thanks so much! I am happy to know that if I must move on from another month it's with you wonderful ladies! Smile I'm trying to be upbeat and positive especially after last week's depressing moments. I think I'll feel way less depressed off of progesterone too. Lol. I'm not typically a person who stays down for long so I knew something was up with that awful drug. Not sure what we'll do next time but I'm not worried about it right now. I'm just going to try to stay calm and look forward to great things. A friend of mine has an April baby and she said it's such a great month to have a baby. It'd be a great month for us for sure since my unhealthiest months from the immune condition that I have are the winter months. I'd be just getting into my healthiest part of the year which would be so much easier when taking care of a newborn and having no sleep. So maybe it's all meant to be. I guess we'll see! Keeping everything crossed for you ladies this month too!

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"mac1006" wrote:

Leah sorry you are moving over but hopefully April will be your month. Now you have me scared I'm starting progesterone this cycle. We are on all the same meds expect the Baby Aspirin I don't take that. Sending lots of baby dust your way.

Oh don't be scared! It seems that it's pretty rare for it to be that bad. It can also vary based on the type of progesterone you take. I was on the gel. I have a terrible time with hormones. The pill often treats me the same way and we learned there's only one kind that I can take that my body can handle. I think the extreme sensitivity to hormones just runs in the family or something. My mom is the same way, and my grandmother. I'm keeping FX that you have zero side effects on it. Smile

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Leah... Im so sorry that things didnt work out for March!! Im sending you all my baby dust for an April '13 baby!!! Here's hoping for your BFP in the near future!

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Leah, I am so sorry March wasn't your month hun, but I think that everything DOES happen for a reason. I hope that this month will bring you an amazing surprise Smile

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Leah I'm so sorry March didn't work out for you! I will keep everything crossed that this is your month! Are you gonna have to take progesterone again this month?

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Thanks ladies! Gina I'm not sure yet about the progesterone. I took another 3 hour nap today...could not wake up. Ugh! It's horrible. Sounds good but it's not. Lol. It's like being drugged ALL the time. I feel like I'm on sleeping pills 24/7 or something. I wasn't this tired when I was pregnant. Geez. But yeah all I know is that it's stopped for now. Doc office just wanted me to call on my day 1 unless it doesn't show to get a refill on the Femara and discuss what we'll be doing next. I'll probably just talk to the doc about it at my ultrasound if I have another mid cycle one again to check on my follicles. He doesn't do them every month so I'm not sure. I know he was convinced I'd be pregnant this month because we didn't even discuss what we'd do if I wasn't. I think maybe I just got too overwhelmed or something. I guess we'll see. I'm about to go meditate...or try anyway. Doesn't come naturally to me. Lol.

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Leah do you have a Wii fit? There is a meditation challenge on it. I did have the best score but then my dd beat me. I'm not surprised lol I have generalized anxiety disorder and am NOT a calm person. I do enjoy yoga though when I get the time to do it. I really hope youre not out yet. If you are I hope this next cycle is definitely it for you. I found my 2nd cycle back ttc after losing Noah to be much easier than the first and if it has to happen that you have a 2nd cycle too I hope your is easier as well. As for the progesterone maybe you could try a smaller dose if you need it? Or try taking it vaginally would that make a difference?

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Leah-
I'm sorry AF is coming around. I too, was really hopeful for a March baby. But... I am an April baby myself and I love the time of year that my birthday comes! I can't believe that progesterone. Its sad to hear you are down. You have been through so much and offer so many positive and kind words to everyone. Keep your chin up. Hopefully w/ the discontinuing of the prog. that you will be feeling like yourself in no time. Crossing my fingers...for a bunch of April babies for all that are on here right now!! :goodluck:

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So sorry march wasn't your month.
But I have to say your attitude is awesome!!
I really hope April brings you a different type of shower!!!
Xxxxxx

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Good luck Leah!!!!

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Thanks so much ladies! I love you all! I don't know what I'd do without all of the unwavering support I've always been given here. Smile It makes moving on each month so much more bearable. I've been all weird tonight. I took an IC this morning and got another line like before. That shadow line that I think might be an evap...only I would have gotten about 10 of them now which is nuts. Bad batch of ICs maybe. Took two more tonight just out of curiosity and got the same line on them. They're pretty visible too not like before which is so weird. I really think it has to be a bad batch of tests. I know I'm doing them right and never had them do this before but it just seems weird. I'll take a FRER if no AF tomorrow but I'm feeling kind of crampy or heavy or something tonight so I'm thinking AF will show right on time tomorrow. If not I'm calling the doc Friday to see if we can straighten this junk out. At this point, even if I am pregnant by some miracle I'd be in April anyway so I'm staying here. Lol. I just meditated so I'm feeling okay about it. Lol. I'm trying to be mellow. I'm pretty sure mellow and TTC/STC don't go together but I'm trying to force them together. Haha.

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Leah, I've been lurking and have everything crossed for you! When I was treated by an RE it was standard to use injectable progesterone with IVF cycles and suppositories for injectable IUI cycles without testing to see if progesterone was low. It made me feel better to think I was doing something, but it may have been unnecessary. If the s/e are really unbearable your dr. might just skip it unless your progesterone is low. Hope that's the case!

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KUP posted on today! Crossing my fingers AF stays away. If FRER has same line... get a pic for us!!! Smile

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I had to do progesterone suppositories myself...My RE told me to do it at night before bed because it my cause drowsiness and boobs hurt as well.....It was the best two week sleep ever....lol....GL I hope it pregnancy symptoms for you(smile)

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Thanks ladies. Same IC line this morning. I really think this is just a horrible batch of tests and they all have bad evaps. I took four between yesterday and today kind of doing my own experiment. They all look the same and come up within the proper time frame and if left in the bright bathroom light at all they get darker. Has to be evaps. So annoying. I'd rather waste my money on more reliable tests though next time I intend to wait longer to test...like closer to AF. Lol. AF is definitely on her way this morning. I'd be shocked if the whole day went by without her. I feel sick to my stomach and have low back pain and pressure and cramps. Usually she shows once I start moving around and I just got up. Lol. Any time now. I'm completely okay with it though. This cycle was so screwed up that I think I would have been nervous with all that was happening if I got pregnant on a "bad" cycle. Now I should have plenty of time to call the doc and gets things straightened out. Smile

Beth the only put me on progesterone because I m/c last time. The doc doesn't think that's why I m/c because he checked in along with my betas and it was fine, but he just didn't want to take any extra risks. I kind of feel at this point it's more of a risk for me to take it because I felt so bad and I really think it contributed to me not getting pregnant this month. I just feel like my body was so severely out of whack and I don't think it created a very good environment. It gave me a UTI and caused bleeding etc etc in addition to the side effects. My doc is great about listening to how I feel about everything and I don't think he'll want me to do it again unless there's a method I'm more likely to respond to better.

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any update today? I'm stalking you!

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STILL no AF. Seriously? Lol. I talked to the doc office yesterday and they said I could still be pregnant and for some reason it just hasn't shown up and to just call in a week if AF still hadn't shown. I woke up with a killer headache today but I can't tell if it's hormone or sinus. It's all rainy and gross here today so could just be sinus. I don't know. It hurts though. I have some cramps off an on. I haven't had any bad ones but enough that I think maybe AF will finally show and then nothing. And TMI but I keep feeling wet and so I think AF is here and I run to the bathroom and check but there's nothing there...not even anything wet. I'm dry as a bone. Lol. Last time I know for sure that I was all dry like that I was pregnant. I didn't start getting the pregnancy wetness junk (lol) until after 6 weeks. I'm trying not to have hopes up at all but this is super weird. All of my tests look the same too. The ICs anyway. The last 6 I've taken all have a light line. Can't tell if it's a bad batch and they all just have it or what. Tried water and it didn't leave a line...not sure what to think.

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Ok I take it back. As soon as I finished typing this AF showed...a day late. Stupid AF. Oh well. At least I FINALLY have the answer and I'm FINALLY moving on to the next cycle. I just have to say I will never trust another IC ever again. Or a blue dye. FRER was the only thing that gave me a true result all along. I just threw away 6 ICs and all had light lines on them. I've always wondered about them. Now I have my answer. Geez. And on to the next cycle now. Yay!

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i'm sorry leah that AF showed! tha'ts so weird about the IC's too... i never had them show a line for me unless i was pregnant... i had a chemical and it picked it up but so did the FRER

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Aww Leah, sorry AF showed Sad