So..I hope I don't get judged for this, but.. I guess I just need some advice.
My mom and MIL are totally excited for me to be having a girl. DH's cousin JUST had a girl, but he lives outside of Chicago, so..it's not like she's here for MIL to dote on. I love picking out pink everything, because only within the last few years have I hit my girly streak - I was always a tomboy growing up. DH said he just wanted a healthy baby, he never ever said what he wanted.
I was floored when I saw we were having a girl and I know we're making a lot of people happy, but.. I can't but feel maybe I wanted a boy. I guess .. I see how DH is with the hunting and fishing and working on cars and he's a very manly man and even though I know it's HIS sperm that makes up the gender, I feel bad that we aren't having a son. I mentioned something to him last night and he said that we will have another child and maybe that one will be a son, but if it's not he'll be happy with having two girls. He always says the right things, he's NEVER made me think he's unhappy with a girl. So that's why I think maybe I wanted a boy..maybe these are my feelings - instead of feeling them for DH. Except that when I think about it, I don't really care what gender I have. Or maybe I'd just feel more comfortable with a boy because I've been around boys my entire life.
I don't know why I'm feeling like this..