You guys, I am having the WORST day. I feel like the worst mom in the world.
Ok, so ever since Reid was still in the hospital, the ONLY way I have ever gotten him to fall asleep was either by nursing while rocking him or like the car. Which I didn't really mind. I knew about sleep associations, so I kept trying every other "gentle" method I could find to try to get him to start falling asleep "awake but drowsy" or at least replace that sleep association with something a little easier like a pacifier, but no dice. So whatever, I keep thinking that he's young, we'll keep trying, and he'll get it eventually. Except for the past several days (almost a week) even that hasn't been working for him when it comes to naps. Like, I will nurse and rock him on and on, and every time I try to put him down he will pop awake, or wake up before I even try to put him down, so then I have to start the whole process over again. I've seriously been spending HOURS nursing and rocking and trying to get him to nap each day, and he's still not getting enough sleep as evidenced by the fact that he has turned back into a super crank.
Plus, my five year old is now home with me. When he was in school I could maybe have spent that time rocking and rocking Reid, but I can't leave a five year old to his own devices for hours every day while I'm in the nursery rocking and rocking. Luckily my DH has been home so he has taken care of T, but he is taking summer classes that start on Wednesday, so I will be the only parent home with them in a couple of days. Plus I go back to work in two weeks, and I know my daycare lady won't be able to rock him all day. And plus, what if she kicks is out because he won't nap and just cries all day.
So today I've been doing some controlled crying with him to see if I can teach him to go to sleep that way. I go in every 3-5 minutes to reassure him, but I still feel awful. He finally fell asleep after about half an hour of that, but he only slept for half an hour and now he's fussing again. I don't even know what to do, like do I get him up for a while or do some more of this til he takes a decent nap? Geez what an awful day for both of us.