Im done being sorry for myself for not getting pg again this cycle. It definitely wasnt as depressing as my first cycle back ttc after losing Noah when I didnt get pg. I wish I could feel relaxed and happy about this process but I know that isnt in the cards. There is just still too much pain over Noah's loss that I carry in my heart and I know that some of that will be alleviated by having another healthy baby, though nothing can replace Noah of course. My cousin is having a shower this weekend and I REALLY dont want to go. But that is silly isnt it? I mean I have 6 kids and my cousin attended my one shower I had when I was pg with my first (though she was a mere child then!). I am happy for her I really am but Noah was due one month after her dd is due and I know it is gonna be painful for me to see her and her baby belly. I havent seen her or many of my family on that side since I lost Noah and I know they will feel uncomfortable around me and not know what to say. Still I am gonna go and make the best of it my girls are excited to go and so is my mom. All right I am going to start feeling positive now about this cycle and not worry about anything elsee.
So what natural meds are you guys taking? My period was light again which kind of worries me since it could indicate my lining isnt building up like it should. I read up on it though and it seems that many women experience light periods (and I mean light I had one day of spotting, then one day of medium bleeding, then two more days of just light spotting) and still get pg. Anyway I read Pom juice and RRL tea might help build up lining and I tried that last cycle but it doesnt seem to have worked. I didnt have any EWCM last cycle either and while I dont always have it every month I normally have more watery cm then I did too. So I have heard green tea is good for that as is robitussin or mucinex (I have used these before when ttc w/o much difference). Has anyone tried the FertileCM stuff or the FertileAid that is offered online? Its not cheap so I dont want to waste my money on them. My MW says that she thinks my prenatal and lots of water should do all that I need to get pg but said the other stuff wouldnt hurt me any. I have also thought about picking up some Vitex (chasteberry) or Maca Root? Anyone on those?