Just had my 40 week appointment with my midwife. She did an internal progress check and I am 1 almost 2cm dilated and 30% effaced with a very soft cervix. Soooo YAY!! I will take that!! She said I would probably see some pink show because she had been poking around and sure enough that is the case (more than I expected really). I'm also having some crampy contractions so part of me is hoping that her poking around was just what I needed to get this ball rolling!! Must not get hopes up too high yet though.
We talked about the process of transferring me to a hospital/doctor care in the event I hit 42 weeks and next week I go for an ultrasound if I am still pregnant to check my fluid levels around the baby. I've also started drinking raspberry leaf tea per suggestion and tonight I start using Evening Primrose Oil. But it sounds like my body is on track which was nice to hear. My weight has leveled off and blood pressure remains awesome. Baby's HR clocked in at a steady 150.
Wish me contractions ladies!!
Well after having cramps, contractions and bloody show all day yesterday (nothing I could say was consistent however), I wake up this morning and have come FULL FREAKING STOP AGAIN!!!! OMFG!!! I AM GOING TO BE PREGNANT FOREVER!!!!!!! I was so sure the clock had started! I figured over the next night/day things would get more regular and baby would be on her way. Now I am just so frustrated. I feel like I am letting everyone down everytime things don't pan out. DH keeps telling me I can't control it and shouldn't feel bad, but I do. I know I'm putting too much pressure on myself but after all these starts and stops it is hard not to. I was doing good not watching the clock or calendar...now all I can see is that damn calendar. My FIL is coming for a visit Sunday and I was so sure baby would be here. Now I just think of it as or more person I'm going to disappoint when he get here and I'm still pregnant! Uhg. Okay, enough self beating up. I'm just so damn frustrated. I know im only 4 days past due and that's not very long so I just need to dig deep and find some patience.