Well the last few days have been so exhausting and emotional I just don't even know how to begin to deal with them, but they have led us to a chance of plans. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was so tired and I was just awake no matter what I did. I was so furious I couldn't sleep I kept punching my pillow. I think around 5 I finally fell asleep. My MIL woke me up calling me. Grrr...but that's another story. When I got up I had a total freak out and screamed my head off and cried and realized that I just can't take the Clomid anymore. For me to have this horrible emotional insane tantrum it's gotta be the hormones. If I was ever on the wrong bcp I would be that way and I always had to stop them. It was awful. I had DH throw the bottle of Clomid in the trash. I may switch to Femara or something in Jan if the doc thinks it wouldn't be as bad as Clomid but I'm definitely planning to take Dec. off from medications entirely.
What's craziest about all of this is that once my freak out was over I started to wonder if it could be from hcg or something. I took another test. Yesterday at 12DPO I had a BFN. Today there is a line there. I've had two false positives with this brand before though so I definitely don't trust it yet. It's a super faint line and I never imagined it would be there. DH saw it first since I wouldn't even look at the test. He had to run an errand and he's buying me a FRER so I'll try to test with that and just see what happens. I'm not really hoping much though. It's so light it might just be an evap. Ugh! Anyway that's my crazy freak out story for today. Hope everyone else is having better mornings.