OMG yesterday I think I finally lost it. I turned into a crying mess most of the day, for no good reason. I barely slept all night because of pain in my hips...unfortunately this is becoming a nightly thing. 2-3 hours and they hurt so bad I can't sleep. I'll move to the couch and might get 1-2 more before I have to get up just to move and see if it helps.
Then DS wanted to play outside, so DH and I took him out. Dh is up and running with him, and I'm stuck in the lawn chair watching because of hip pain and the pinched nerve and I lost it. I just started crying for no good reason. of course once I started I couldn't stop. I kept thinking about how this could have been our last weekend just the 3 of us; then about how I feel like such a bum because I'm so limited on what I can do. My doc basically has me on all but bedrest because of the nerve in my leg. I can barely walk, it gives out after mere minutes, so getting anything accomplished has been minimal.
DH has been great in helping when he's home, does all the dishes, helps a bunch with cooking and cleaning; and he does it without complaining. But I still feel bad that I sit/lay on the couch just watching. Although he brings me the clothes and I'll fold them while sitting, so I do a little, but it just feels like it's not enough.
I'm so close to being done, and I know it could be any day, but it still doesn't seem close enough. I've got another appt tomorrow and I'm really hoping for good news. I'll be 38wks 4days then and I'm just ready to give up. I want him to come naturally ASAP, but between the constant pain and not being able to do stuff I'm so close to asking my doc to set the end date so I have something to look forward to.