Hello Ladies! I apologize for not being on the boards lately, I am not able to load pg.org from these computers. Not sure why but it just keeps loading until it says internet is not responding. Well so heres whats been going on:
Isabella Imani (5lb, 10oz) and Anthony Jacob (5lb, 14oz) were born on 31 July - a week old today! And they are GORGEOUS!! Of course, I might be a little bias - but just a little LOL I am currently staying at the Fisher House here right across from the hospital. For those of you who arent familiar with it, its a house (common spaces shared) with anywhere from 8-16 rooms (with their own bathrooms) where military families who are experiencing a medical crisis of some sort can stay for free- if you live outside of 50 miles from the hospital.
So they are in the NICU. Its one step forward, 2 steps back some days... overall, they are doing well - However, he still has a tube in his nose bc he was not eating very well... which is getting much better. She continues to have multiple episodes of apnea/tachy/bradycardia... so basically she just needs to breath right for 5 days and we can go home... not so simple... while they said its common in premature babies, really they just have to outgrow it in a sense. She has to be 5 days with no episode to be considered to go home. Well each day so far, we start back at day zero. Its a little frustrating. In addition, my 2 DD's (older ones) are preparing to start school next week and have other things going on so I am staying here myself. In some ways its good so I can focus on being there for as many of their feedings as I can which is every 3 hours (but heck by the time you finish them both, you might have time to pee and grab something to eat and its go time again) and just being there to bond with them. On the other hand, I get super sad bc I really miss my other 2 kids.
I'll try to keep this one short. Well the first ugly was the labor - my water broke a few min before 4pm and I was at the hospital by 6pm on Sunday - I did not give birth until Tuesday morning and even then, the twins are 5 hours and 1 min apart! In a nutshell, my water broke and they amde all sorts of attempts to induce me and get me to start having contractions but everything was slow going, nothing was progressing it seemed. I loved the doctor though - he was super encouraging and knew if I could avoid it, I did not want a c section and he said he felt confident that we could do it safely without so overall it went smooth. THE UGLIEST PART: Ever since DH came home, he wants nothing to do with me. A few days after being home, I kept bugging him to tell me if everything was ok and what was wrong and THRU a TEXT MSG, he told me he was having some adjustment issues. So I went downstairs to talk and he didnt want to talk he just said that he didnt feel right being home, he was scared - for the twins arrival plus he didnt know what he was going to do with his career - hes due to get out or transfer soon and they arent offering him anything in the area... well with us both being active duty, I am stuck here and cant follow him... so I did understand all that but then it just went from there... now he is confused and doesnt know what he wants and is not talking to me at all... and today is our 8 year anniversary
Needless to say, this has been a rough week but I am taking it day by day - feeding by feeding and just trying to manage what I have here with the twins. I can get too wrapped up in everything else - bc if not I have melt downs ...and I have. So thats my story... thats why I havent been on the boards. I will try to get on once in a while through my phone but honestly that is kind of hard. I dont know why this computer here wont load our boards Hope everyone is doing well and having healthy babies!!! Miss you all!!
~Jill (Military Mom)