So lately I haven't really been feeling Baby D move around a lot... I felt it quite a bit for a while, but in the last few days, I THINK that I may have felt him once or twice. It's got me a little nervous, and it apparently came through in my dreams last night because I had this horrible dream.
In the dream, this doctor did some genetic test on my baby and decided that it wasn't going to make it out alive, so he gave me this pill to take to miscarry the baby. I was devastated, so I called in to work, and then took the pill. At some point in the dream my DH showed up and we were both really upset. Then I went into some office in my work and met with my OB who was doing some sort of magic ultrasound and said, "don't worry - everything looks just fine. Your baby is going to be okay." So I turned to my DH and was sobbing with relief, when all of the sudden I remembered that I had already taken the pill that would make me miscarry the baby... then my DH woke me up this morning. And of course, I felt like crap from the dream... not the best start to my day.
So now I'm all nervous - worse than I have been. I can't wait until Wednesday when I have my big ultrasound... I just really, RELALY need some reassurance that everything is okay. It's weird because I don't ever remember being so nervous and worried when I was pregnant with any of my girls. I think it's because this baby is so WANTED... you know? I'm not sure that's the best way to articulate the feeling, but we actually tried for this baby, where my girls all just kind of happened, you know?
Anyone else feeling this way??